belarki
Bluelight Crew
Happy birthday Chemist and Redleader!!!!
I'm quickly moving towards the no herb, but no coffee equals grumpy phactor.
I was planning on stopping last friday but I ended up extending it a bit. I have no problem with herb and can put it on the backburner until everything I need to do for the day is done. I'm stopping it because it does cloud the mind a bit. Shame, because I am realizing I enjoy it much more without the alcohol. For years I thought the exact opposite.
This shit ain't easy, man. I was tossing around the idea of using but I can't be fuckin' around like that. I was thinkin' a couple of beers would hit the spot but beer doesn't take me to where I want to be and it would simply make it easier to head to the city to get what I REALLY want
With my tolerance being down I was thinkin that after a couple beers I could head downtown and grab a bag and a spike (pretty much all I can afford) but FUCK THAT.
I called my sponsor and he put things in perspective for me. He says that boredom is another word for peaceful and since I'm new into this thing that there is going to be a bunch of discomfort because I'm used to chaos and being high. He says it'll take some time to be ok with the unadulterated me because I probably have no idea who the unadulterated me is.
Anyway, I didn't get high with anything and am hittin' a meeting in a couple of hours.
Oh! Happy Birthday, Chemist!!!!!
anyway he told me he'll help however I want...not sure how I want him to help yet, just be supportive.
its nice to be good to your body.![]()
I'm back on the sober train. Spent the past 48 doing a decent amount of drugs for my birthday celebration. But actually, got a lot of positive stuff out of it and feel good about the rest of this month, and the upcoming year.![]()