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octSOBER - let's do this!

Three days away from heroin. If I dont feel any better towards the 4th of November, I'll just save up a stockpile of benzos and enjoy my weeks vacation that way, as they'll stave away the depression. I've been told for each year of physical dependence you should expect 8 weeks of depressed mood...that's four months for me. I really hope I'm not feeling like this for another four months; my major depressive symptoms are back full force and the symptoms of such were what originally urged me towards opiates.

2 years ago i did Febfast....it was the hardest fucking month of my life but it also changed my life. Don't beat yourself up if you fail, we fail so many times before we succeed. Any month of the year can be your test if you're ready for it.
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What substance did you fast from and how did it change your life?
 
Fuck.

I took an extra 3mg klonopin.

Didn't do jack shit, as expected.

Try again tomorrow. Otherwise sober and bored to tears.
 
hthr007 said:
I think I'm the first to fail :(
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Thou said:
Fuck.

I took an extra 3mg klonopin.
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No worries, guys. A small slip won't hurt anything, jump back on that horse tomorrow. :)

Vader said:
Don't give in to the black-or-white mentality
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QFT. I would go so far as to say that black-or-white thinking is totally opposite the spirit of octsober... its about taking positive steps, whether they're big or small it doesn't matter.
 
Remember quitting's a war not a battle. The goal is the effort you all put in. The fact that you're going to change a major life of your life, even just for a month to show support for each other quitting and to do something good for yourself is substantial and is something i'm very envious of. What im doing is nothing. You're all attempting to quit or reduce opiates, booze and even benzo addiction, and the effort is something to be proud of no matter what.

If you guys ever have a craving you're having trouble handling, just come back to this thread and hopefully it will change your mind somehow <3
 
Roger&Me said:
This really struck home for me. I felt the same way when I used to be on benzos; I had a pretty bad habit. I wish I could say there was some easy trick to get over it, but there isn't -- you just have to march off into the woods, naked and with no supplies. But ya know what? (to extend your analogy) it gets a little warmer every night you're out there. After a while, you stop shivering all night, and you gather new supplies and rags to clothe yourself with, and build everything back up from there. Before you know it, you're living well again. Just speaking for myself personally, I couldn't really start to heal until I accepted the whole process (suffering included) as an inevitability, and looked at it as a painful but necessary growing experience.

Like I said before, it really is a process. If I may interject some humor, its a Chief Wiggum kind of situation:

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"this is going to get worse before it gets better"
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Best story I've heard today. Thanks.
 
Thank you for the chief wiggum GIF lol

Alcohol day 2 of abstaining. Used way too much klonopin yesterday but back to normal dose today.

Going to walk to the library in a bit. Hope everyone's coping well on this dreary day.
 
Why do you guys have to do this during October? It's the prime month for getting out of your head here so it's kind of hard to be anywhere close to sober.
 
I think there is a clear distinction between "getting out (or in in my case) of ones head' and abstaining from something causing you trouble.

I'm a user of psychedelics and cannabis, but not often and only when I can afford it; so not for some time.

I take benzos and amphetamines daily but don't abuse them, and they help me function and 'play the human game' if you will.

I've limited myself to 1mg klonopin per day.

I started back on an alcoholic path some months back. Now I'm abstaining completely and stopping it.

But if you offered me a stick of tea I'd enjoy it with a clean conscience. Because I'm not exploiting my passions.

You don't have to be a teetotaler to be a Buddhist, which i dig. :)

Doing great 2.4 mile walk to library printing out resumes considering another 2.5 mile walk to a nursing home nearby to present my impressive looking resume (most of it a greatly exaggerated).

Content and enjoying Alan Watts whilst I walk.

Hope everyone else is choking that bastard monkey into blind submission! Excessive is a blessing if you can stomach it.
 
^love reading your posts.<3 I love Alan Watts but I can never get those images of him with his pants hiked up to his armpits (50's style) out of my head which makes me chuckle every time I listen to him.
 
endlessnameless said:
Three days away from heroin. If I dont feel any better towards the 4th of November, I'll just save up a stockpile of benzos and enjoy my weeks vacation that way, as they'll stave away the depression. I've been told for each year of physical dependence you should expect 8 weeks of depressed mood...that's four months for me. I really hope I'm not feeling like this for another four months; my major depressive symptoms are back full force and the symptoms of such were what originally urged me towards opiates.



What substance did you fast from and how did it change your life?
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Have you got any rehab facilities around you you could withdraw in?

I was addicted to gbl then alcohol....Febfast was a booze and drug free month for me, before that i think it was 3 years of alcohol addiction, maybe 1-2 years on g. I didn't think i could go one day without a drink yet alone a whole month, but i did it (with the support of my very patient and loving partner) and it was the first step in me believing it was even possible to live without alcohol. Then a few dangerous wake up calls later and i managed to get it under control. Even if you go a month without and then start up again, you always have that memory of that month you went without to know it's possible.
 
I'm a little late to the party, but I want to play.

I've recently kicked a nasty Tramadol habit, and used benzos to help. I've been playing around with them a bit too much lately, so I'm done with them. Quick taper starting now and then I'm finished.

I really need to cut down on the weed too. I've never really been a heavy smoker, but since getting off the Tramadol, I've been smoking daily. I don't like how my head is starting to feel. I need to be sober.

Good luck to everyone.
 
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herbavore said:
^love reading your posts.<3 I love Alan Watts but I can never get those images of him with his pants hiked up to his armpits (50's style) out of my head which makes me chuckle every time I listen to him.
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You're sweet to say that.

He pretty much changed my view of life from destitute nihlism and institutionalization to one of hope and brevity. Quite magical.
 
paranoid android said:
Why do you guys have to do this during October? It's the prime month for getting out of your head here so it's kind of hard to be anywhere close to sober.
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Yeah there will be temptation, resist it. I have a wedding to go to later this month but I won't drink booze there.
 
PriestTheyCalledHim said:
Yeah there will be temptation, resist it. I have a wedding to go to later this month but I won't drink booze there.
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I keep the drinking to no more then 1 or 2 beers a day max which is pretty good for someone that lived for alcohol at one point. Honestly the drug causing me the most problems now is fucking Tobacco. My lungs are really suffering from way too much smoking and my lung capacity has gone to shit so it's really taking a toil on my health.

It's shroom season here in October and since i love psychs i won't be avoiding them. One goal of mine however is to stop using more opiates then i need for pain. I don't need enough morphine and hydromorphone to kill a horse usually but that does not stop me alot of the time.
 
Wow, I have my normal appetite back and it feels great. For almost a decade I wouldn't get hungry at all unless I smoked some weed, and my stomach hurt if I tried to force down some food without it. Well I just pigged out on a huge chicken sammich, french fries, and and an iced tea and I feel great. :D

Its literally been about 8 years since I've gone this long without smoking. I'm pumped up to keep going.

And hai mel! :)
 
Roger&Me said:
Wow, I have my normal appetite back and it feels great. For almost a decade I wouldn't get hungry at all unless I smoked some weed, and my stomach hurt if I tried to force down some food without it. Well I just pigged out on a huge chicken sammich, french fries, and and an iced tea and I feel great. :D

Its literally been about 8 years since I've gone this long without smoking. I'm pumped up to keep going.

And hai mel! :)
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This is excellent to hear! Well done sir, one of the greatest pleasures in life is enjoying food imo
 
Just stumbled across this thread and I think it's a great idea!

I've been talking to my friends about taking a sobriety break for about 4 months now... Although talking about it never motivated me enough to actually go through with it, partially because I'm scared of life without any substances, which is a red flag in my books. I've quit before, only once on will power, the other times was forced (rehab, army basic training, etc...)

My current DOC is Cannabis and has been for a few years now. I'm on day 2 right now, no weed ;) I'm also going to quit drinking for the time being, but I'm going to keep taking my 0.5 alprazolam as prescribed. My friends are having a huge Halloween party on the 27th so my goal is to stay sober until then, so 23 days to go! I know I can do it, and hopefully I'll feel better physically and mentally.

Good luck to everyone else!
 
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