NYC closing in

What's up BL.

So last time I checked in here I had just come out of a brutal detox..well... I started using again. (Shocker I know). Went on a pretty serious bender for months shooting a lot of coke and dope and loosing a lot of people I love.

But, I'm sober now..back on the suboxone finally after having a hellish time transitioning from the dope. So I feel good..psychically..But mentally... I'm lost. It feels like the walls in this city are closing in around me, like I can't breath. I need to get out of here, maybe go out to LA for a while and decompress.. Though my girl's not going to like that.

By the way, my crazy junkie model ex-girlfriend is coming back into town. Needless to say I'm not excited to have to see her and relive all the pain we caused each other while being parasites to one another's lives.

So, right now I want to give the whole city the finger and say "so long fuckers"... But I know I'll be back. I bleed NYC. It's in my veins and it's where I belong, even if sometimes it's the loneliest place in the world.

-Scagnattie

 

Hang in there buddy! All good things in due time or something like that.

 

Hang in there buddy! All good things in due time or something like that.

Thanks man. Hope you're doing well brother, haven't seen many posts from you in OD.

 

Im good man i just havent been on the site as much lately. Ill be around more now that finals sre over.

 

hey Mr Scag I hope everything's going allright, I remember you saying the switch to subs was getting more and more difficult each time you went back and forth.

do you know someone who lives in LA or something? it just seems weird you would go across the country to get away from dope when Upstate New York is pretty rural if im not mistaken.

either way, just do what you gotta do to make yourself content, and remember if you can successfully get clean from speedballing (or just doing both around the same time, your wording was kind of ambiguous) that is something not very many people can say.

Idk if you fuck with MDMA or LSD but that can open up new interpretations of how you are living your life for some people.

keep up the faith, and don't feel guilty for being an addict there's far worse people out there and a lot of them operate legally

 

I feel a bit cheeky leaving comment on a blog because, you know, its your life and feelings your sharing...but your a naturally talented storyteller!
Some of your entries make me sad, some make me laugh but as a whole their always entertaining.
I guess what im saying is thanks for sharing mate!
I hope you get your holiday and that 'decompression' goes well.
Congrats on getting on treatment again and i hope it works out for you this time.

 

I feel a bit cheeky leaving comment on a blog because, you know, its your life and feelings your sharing...but your a naturally talented storyteller!
Some of your entries make me sad, some make me laugh but as a whole their always entertaining.
I guess what im saying is thanks for sharing mate!
I hope you get your holiday and that 'decompression' goes well.
Congrats on getting on treatment again and i hope it works out for you this time.

Thank you, man. I appreciate it.

 

do you know someone who lives in LA or something? it just seems weird you would go across the country to get away from dope when Upstate New York is pretty rural if im not mistaken.
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Yeah I have a lot of friends out there, friends I used to party with in NY who are actually clean now. I like that it is so far from NY. The weather and beach is calming too.

 

I'm sorry to hear things have still been so difficult lately. I know it's not saying much but just remember it only gets better from here with the detox...hope you manage to get some time off in LA soon. Hang in there.

 

In the same boat..