Numb/Passion
The world is crazy everything is crazy,
there is no surreal when nothing is normal
deprivation is the only constant
and the drive to accomplish something, to be remembered
in the end we're all sentenced to obscurity
why does that scare me.
sometimes my discontent with reality makes me create
my creations remain in my head,
where they can only twist into thoughts that sadden me
I just want to chase the madness until it brings me to the meaning of life
spirituality through drugs
I keep thinking there's something behind it all save for neuropharmacology
chemicals natural and not my mind's full of them, diacetylmorphine, morphine, codeine
diazepam, oxazepam, nitrazepam, flunitrazepam, amphetamine,
dexamphetamine, methamphetamine, mdma, mda, cocaine lsd, dxm, k, weed,
PLEASE SIR CAN I 'AVE SUM MORE???
Obsessed junkies with blunt needles and abused veins
mine their arms for blood and sob when they can't find any
attack ambulance drivers and vomit chocolate on police
blessed with a kick in the teeth
When I'm saddest the world is visceral beauty
the sky is lit up, changed, there is no day in my world, the night is gorgeous
I could cry but I'm too numb
Things are meant to be easier when you feel nothing but they're not
and every time I let my guard down the world stabs me in the gut
the world has a way of kicking you in the nuts when you're down
When you're starving you hate everybody, everybody's rich except you
and all the real people walk past you and don't even look
sometimes you feel invisible, why should they care about you
you're not even real, you're human waste and you belong in the gutter
Fury fury, repression, suppression, coercive arguments in favour of suicide
defend or defy, it's your choice, angry landlords, frantic junkies,
addicted mothers with addicted babies, stairwells full of needles
corrupt police and insane drug dealers, glass mixed in powder makes it weigh heavier
dead teenagers, shot up draino, close your eyes it doesn't get better, sometimes you
wanna cry but it feels so goddamn good to be this low
lightning that breaks when your eyes are shut then disappears by the time you open them
Hate Hate, why must i be this way, there's something wrong, something went wrong and can never
be put right
The sun has gone down forever, and all the beauty of the night will remind you
you are far too base for this world
too ugly
you do not belong
why not kill yourself are you too afraid?
The world is crazy everything is crazy,
there is no surreal when nothing is normal
deprivation is the only constant
and the drive to accomplish something, to be remembered
in the end we're all sentenced to obscurity
why does that scare me.
sometimes my discontent with reality makes me create
my creations remain in my head,
where they can only twist into thoughts that sadden me
I just want to chase the madness until it brings me to the meaning of life
spirituality through drugs
I keep thinking there's something behind it all save for neuropharmacology
chemicals natural and not my mind's full of them, diacetylmorphine, morphine, codeine
diazepam, oxazepam, nitrazepam, flunitrazepam, amphetamine,
dexamphetamine, methamphetamine, mdma, mda, cocaine lsd, dxm, k, weed,
PLEASE SIR CAN I 'AVE SUM MORE???
Obsessed junkies with blunt needles and abused veins
mine their arms for blood and sob when they can't find any
attack ambulance drivers and vomit chocolate on police
blessed with a kick in the teeth
When I'm saddest the world is visceral beauty
the sky is lit up, changed, there is no day in my world, the night is gorgeous
I could cry but I'm too numb
Things are meant to be easier when you feel nothing but they're not
and every time I let my guard down the world stabs me in the gut
the world has a way of kicking you in the nuts when you're down
When you're starving you hate everybody, everybody's rich except you
and all the real people walk past you and don't even look
sometimes you feel invisible, why should they care about you
you're not even real, you're human waste and you belong in the gutter
Fury fury, repression, suppression, coercive arguments in favour of suicide
defend or defy, it's your choice, angry landlords, frantic junkies,
addicted mothers with addicted babies, stairwells full of needles
corrupt police and insane drug dealers, glass mixed in powder makes it weigh heavier
dead teenagers, shot up draino, close your eyes it doesn't get better, sometimes you
wanna cry but it feels so goddamn good to be this low
lightning that breaks when your eyes are shut then disappears by the time you open them
Hate Hate, why must i be this way, there's something wrong, something went wrong and can never
be put right
The sun has gone down forever, and all the beauty of the night will remind you
you are far too base for this world
too ugly
you do not belong
why not kill yourself are you too afraid?
