After reading through this whole thread, all I can say is wow...
Sourcec- How have you been going lately? Are you still using? I hope at least some of your symptoms have cleared up... 1 week of fun is not worth a lifetime of regret. Perhaps you should get your girlfriend to deny you access to NRG-1, just so there's someone there to help you get that little bit of extra willpower to quit. Take care mate, I really hope it gets better.
Hiya, thanks Downloader08.
Well to give you an update, I am still alive lol. Up until today had not had any nrg for 3 weeks, and was going well. Managed to get my other half to let me have a little treat tonight because its been a crap week for me, and quite frankly i don't even know why i liked it so much.
The way it is making me feel now is definitely not like it was all those weeks ago.. estimate first use at about 3 months ago now, so was solidly on this substance for just over 2 months.
The fact that it might have even been vendors shifting their left over MDPV after the ban only adds to nrg's nastiness.
When I stopped taking it, I gave my other half what i had left, roughly 3g, and they still have the rest of it in safe keeping.
Its been hard coming off it after doing so much. I went through days that were severely emotionally charged but some Super Maeng Da helped me through that stage, nice stimulant in low doses.
Had a few cups of poppy pod tea on low days just to get out of it and sleep. And boy did I sleep. I must have overslept for work everyday for two weeks!!
I've put on a bit of weight as I have been craving sugary foods which is healthy I guess compared to what little I was eating before and I have now started taking a daily array of vitamins and amino-acids. 5-htp has helped my mood considerably.
I have been trying out some new subs lately as well, cautious not to over do any of them this time, although accidentally got the dosage wrong on 5-meo-dalt, which led to a 4 hr bad trip followed by 4hrs of amazing visuals!
But in my mind I am a lot clearer now and less fucked up. I can honestly say the opiates have helped a great deal and all the support from my other half also.
Its tough trying to detox from any substance, but I had a lot of support and found a few substitute substances to see me through.
I guess we are just in that kinda culture where we will always use one drug to help us get off another...
Most important thing is, without a doubt, the fact that we need to start concentrating on our own attitude and to learn how to use these substances safely in the first place; that's the most important lesson that my experience can give.
