I moved out of my home a few months ago, trying to be independent. Long story short, nothing went as planned. I became very depressed and couldn't go a day without smoking weed. My friend who I was staying with kicked me out without reason and gave me less then an hour's notice to get out, he also stole a couple hundred dollars worth of stuff from me. I checked myself into a hospital and I've been clean and stayed with my boyfriend for a bit. He couldn't keep me forever though and my family wants nothing to do with me. I'm trying so hard to get things together but I'm going nowhere. Shelters are not an option and I am at a complete loss. I truly feel like suicide is the only way out, which breaks my heart. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired and beyond done. I'm new to Bluelight so forgive me if this is posted in the wrong place. I just need some guidance.
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Cosmic Trigger
Bluelighter
Hello and welcome to Bluelight, there are people here who will always lend a listening ear. Just remember this, most everyone at some point finds life dishing out intense trouble and sadness. You are not alone or unique. Things can get better. Opting out of life is always there but remember that it's a dangerous move and can go often horribly wrong when people act in haste. Things can get worse by making rash choices without study and forethought. So... I know this is hard but take a breath and relax and be open to an opportunity for a new plan. Find one person or this place who you can really share your true feelings with and then think of many ideas on what to do. If you only have one or two ideas on how to proceed things usually go bad. A great man once said and I've found this to be true.If you have many ideas you will have good ideas. Take care and best of luck. Let us know how things are going.
Take a step back and consider your options. You're in a difficult situation right now, but it is temporary and it will get better. This isn't worth ending your life over. You said a shawl tee is not an option, why not? I understand it's not great, but it's something while you get back on your feet. It could buy you some breathing room. Do you have any friends you can couch surf with? What is your employment situation? Have you reached out to your family since being clean?
Ruby Slippers
Bluelighter
Something l have learned about life in general is that things rarely go as planned. Adversity is what helps us grow and build character as individuals. You are having a hard time right now but all this will do is help you appreciate when things are better. Take baby steps and hang in there!