Now i remember...

...Why i like drugs. Life is so goddamn painful and depressing i want to spend it all numbed out of my brain. What's the fucking point of it all. It hurts most of the time, you're either numb or deluded the rest. We all end up alone, we all die alone.

So why not see my days through in a haze of drugs numbing all this fucking ridiculous human emotions! Life is too hard and just not worth it when it comes down to it.

See nothing in particular even set this off, this has been my mindset for years, it's why i've done drugs for the last 6 years. To be honest i wish I'd started doing them sooner. When you get a brief window of happiness it never fucking lasts, what the fuck am i doing here?!

 

well we live then we die thats how it is after death there is no more remembering or thinking there is no more you so what we do it the meantime really dosent matter cause its didnt really happen if we dont remember it right i feel the same way as u if i dont do drugs i question life

 

Yeah, this may not be news to you, but life isn't easy. Its not! Most people are depressed throughout their life, unless they find something/someone/a reason to live. Life does seem pointless to me, but that's another story which goes into a theory..anyways, everyone needs to find something that takes away the pain of every day life; for some it is drugs. I thought I had found the answer to life when I started banging heroin. Drugs give temporary relief. Its sad, but true.