Now, I Feel Like Shit

Well I had to go back for a Board meeting and was expecting some recognition for what most people consider a really significant day. At least I do. But I got didddly.

So I wrote my parents an email. I haven't sent it yet. I'm going to get some sleep before I do.

This is the text:

Well some day this turned out to be.

Not that I expected much. This is a family that turns celebrations into nothing. See last 39 Christmases. Over the years they have just become more and more staid. I didn’t expect much but I was still disappointed. Dad expressly said come down early and we’ll go out for dinner before your meeting. Yes, I did. Thanks for that Big Mac. Great dinner for your 40th. Whoopee.

I got more recognition from the board of directors than I did from my family. All they did was buy me a cake.

Right now I am just so disappointed and hurt. I do realize that I have put you through a lot this last year but I’ve made a real effort since Nov 1 to be positive and not do what I know is wrong.

Thanks. Thanks for nothing. I don’t really think I want to come down for Christmas. It will be just another day of being bored. I can do that here in my own home.

The question is this. Do I send it?

 

I think I know where you're coming from. My family isn't close to say the least.