Its been a fucked up month. Met NF which ended now as quickly as it kicked off. It was so good to feel something again, connect with a person in that way. Then I got sick and poof, he was gone. I suppose there may be more to it than that but I will never know his reasons for distancing himself from me. Irrespective it is done now.
Re my health, things are very much up in the air now and I am trying to take it day by day. In a weeks time I will know whether any progress has been made with the treatment and if not, whats next. I am extremely apprehensive atm and don't feel any better but trying to stay positive.
There is a lot going on atm and being forced to stay sober cause the meds for this damned illness is driving me up the wall. Especially with things ending with NF I just want to get fucked up but can't. Need to put my health first for a change and actually deal with my feelings which fucking sucks. Hate feeling shit.
Anyway thats enough of a rant for tonight, time to call it a day and try to finish Drive. Not quite sure why Ryan Gossling is considered so attractive, he does nothing for me but suppose taste is subjective.
Re my health, things are very much up in the air now and I am trying to take it day by day. In a weeks time I will know whether any progress has been made with the treatment and if not, whats next. I am extremely apprehensive atm and don't feel any better but trying to stay positive.
There is a lot going on atm and being forced to stay sober cause the meds for this damned illness is driving me up the wall. Especially with things ending with NF I just want to get fucked up but can't. Need to put my health first for a change and actually deal with my feelings which fucking sucks. Hate feeling shit.
Anyway thats enough of a rant for tonight, time to call it a day and try to finish Drive. Not quite sure why Ryan Gossling is considered so attractive, he does nothing for me but suppose taste is subjective.