manboychef
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Two years on the fourth. I'm just really struggling right now with my mental health. I barely sleep or eat and I'm on edge all the time, but I won't use.
I hear time and time again people say that they've tried x number of times in the past, failed, and they're not sure what's different this particular time but it does indeed feel different. Sometimes it takes several tries before sobriety "clicks." It's normal to start noticing cravings or anxiety once your head has had a few weeks to clear. Just be mindful about it and play the tape all the way through.
And shroomy is right a month isn't arbitrary. And it certainly isn't a small feat. To someone maybe only a few days clean who could be browsing this thread for encouragement, 30 days can seem like a lifetime away. Seeing someone who's doing it successfully can give them real hope.
Two years on the fourth. I'm just really struggling right now with my mental health. I barely sleep or eat and I'm on edge all the time, but I won't use.
I'm proud of you man. That's some will power and strength right there.
tomorrow makes it 90 days sober for me!
i am currently working on the 4th step, have over 100 resentments, and now working on my fears.
today, i do have a conception of a higher power, took reading a few books, and lots of meditation.
it is possible!!
Exactly 8 months, or exactly 35 weeks or 246 days.
Counting time sure seems stressful IMHO. I understand it is really helpful for a lot of folks, but how do you guys do it without feeling like you're setting yourself up for eventual failure?
toothpastedog said:I mean, it sure is nice to reflect upon the fact that I haven't used dope in almost three years, but thinking about it in terms of months, days, weeks, minutes and seconds just stresses me the fuck out. We're all different, and that is what makes us beautiful, I just have a hard time understanding the other point of view sometimes.
Counting time sure seems stressful IMHO. I understand it is really helpful for a lot of folks, but how do you guys do it without feeling like you're setting yourself up for eventual failure? I guess it all depends on how you look at the whole concept of "failure," but still. . .
I mean, it sure is nice to reflect upon the fact that I haven't used dope in almost three years, but thinking about it in terms of months, days, weeks, minutes and seconds just stresses me the fuck out. We're all different, and that is what makes us beautiful, I just have a hard time understanding the other point of view sometimes.
I feel the same way. My ultimate dream in recovery is too forget I ever had a problem with substances.Counting time sure seems stressful IMHO. I understand it is really helpful for a lot of folks, but how do you guys do it without feeling like you're setting yourself up for eventual failure? I guess it all depends on how you look at the whole concept of "failure," but still. . .
I mean, it sure is nice to reflect upon the fact that I haven't used dope in almost three years, but thinking about it in terms of months, days, weeks, minutes and seconds just stresses me the fuck out. We're all different, and that is what makes us beautiful, I just have a hard time understanding the other point of view sometimes.
I feel the same way. My ultimate dream in recovery is too forget I ever had a problem with substances.