vurtomatic
Bluelight Crew
there, on the edge, on the brink
i stood there, not wanting, not daring
to enter your world for its pain
for its lightless night, for its empty sky
i stood there, impotent
for my love, for my pride, i failed
what i promised, what i dared
in my pride, i thought i could
hold your world together, oh i would
a crystal ball i would, a perfection i would
for you
shards in my hands, pieces i held,
pieces that fell through my hands
pieces that shredded my chest
a gaping hole, an empty hole
a vaccuum that devoured,
no light escapes, no, too late
always, too late, too stupid, too insensitive
too me... too... me
sorry means nothing, on the other side
when forever becomes a companion
when forever is a light snuffed out
and here i am, the other side of death you stand
i failed someone i love, and in trying to write it down, only to realise perhaps, i shouldn't have tried but i have no way out and i only have my words. some hurts are so immense, some guilt, the guilt, of letting someone down, so consuming, it invalidates who i am. i am guilt, i am betrayal. i have betrayed the person and i dont know, i dont know, i fear for her so much, for what she is going through, for having been through so much and only to be alone again. i fear for her future, i fear for her and i can never reach across the gulf of life and death, i can only stand on the other side and fear.
i have always tried to make yours a better world, and caged the dark in mine and perhaps i failed then, but i know i failed now.
i am so sorry, i would rather fail myself than have failed you.
nothing matters anymore, when it's too late, does it?
neither does sorry, when it's only a word.
i stood there, not wanting, not daring
to enter your world for its pain
for its lightless night, for its empty sky
i stood there, impotent
for my love, for my pride, i failed
what i promised, what i dared
in my pride, i thought i could
hold your world together, oh i would
a crystal ball i would, a perfection i would
for you
shards in my hands, pieces i held,
pieces that fell through my hands
pieces that shredded my chest
a gaping hole, an empty hole
a vaccuum that devoured,
no light escapes, no, too late
always, too late, too stupid, too insensitive
too me... too... me
sorry means nothing, on the other side
when forever becomes a companion
when forever is a light snuffed out
and here i am, the other side of death you stand
i failed someone i love, and in trying to write it down, only to realise perhaps, i shouldn't have tried but i have no way out and i only have my words. some hurts are so immense, some guilt, the guilt, of letting someone down, so consuming, it invalidates who i am. i am guilt, i am betrayal. i have betrayed the person and i dont know, i dont know, i fear for her so much, for what she is going through, for having been through so much and only to be alone again. i fear for her future, i fear for her and i can never reach across the gulf of life and death, i can only stand on the other side and fear.
i have always tried to make yours a better world, and caged the dark in mine and perhaps i failed then, but i know i failed now.
i am so sorry, i would rather fail myself than have failed you.
nothing matters anymore, when it's too late, does it?
neither does sorry, when it's only a word.
