Nothing Left of Us

[E-girl]

guys i cant even put my sleepless thoughts into poetry tonight. i'm so hurt, my heart is so heavy, its just killing me. i fucked up... i fucked up in the worst way, without even knowing it until it was too late. and now, i am left with nothing. the one person in this world that i cared about... i dont know if he'll ever feel the same about me again, or look at me the same again. i would give anything to take back things i said, times i yelled and bitched about stupid little things. there are no words to say that can fix that... i know now. but i forgave... over and over.... i had FAITH in him and believed only HIM when everyone else put doubts in my head about him. when *they* told me things, i didn't believe them.
i cried, and i cried. i went to work hours early to get my mind off of him, and at the slight mention of his name i cried again. when i saw him, i again could not hold back the tears. when he left and i thought he didnt even bother to say goodbye tonight, i cried. when he came back to say goodbye, i was relieved, but i cried. on the way home, in my car, i pulled over and cried. and now, sitting here, wishing and praying for sleep that i know will not come, i cry again.
why. why....
i said i was sorry.....
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."

 

[Nietzche]

Awwww I am very sorry to hear this. My best wishes are with you. Just have faith in the magical ability that things have in working them selves out, on their own.
Please stay strong and don't let anyone or any event bring you too low. An ounce of faith in yourself can get you out of anything.
Fred~

[This message has been edited by Nietzche (edited 12 August 2001).]

 

[C Divinity]

If you need someone to talk to you can IM me on AIM at Salemgrl...hope everything works out for you
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You gotta be a bad girl in this world to be heard...