everything is constantly changing and evolving. this moment will pass. the future will be a combination of better and worse. it is yet to be decided. do not worry about it, because it hasn't even happened yet. all you can control is the present. this moment. breathing and heart beating. i will always be myself..... no matter how out of connection with my body I happen to become. there is always a way to return to the center.
i learned a REALLY hard lesson today. well cant say I learned it. but i was reminded of it. and it hurts. but. you cannot grasp onto anything to provide yourself with inner peace, happiness, or a center. The only place you can ever get that, permanently, undiluted, unfailing...... is within yourself. no relationship is permanent. they are merely relative. nothing lasts. but nothing is lost. everything is constantly changing in the universe. i am one single individual person navigating through it. there is no need for another to even understand what goes on inside my head. i am the only one that knows, and it doesnt matter.
still i crave the feeling of being loved and I have not felt it for so long. i have so much love to give. it is difficult for me to separate unconditional love for another human being with the fact that nothing lasts and nothing is lost.
i learned a REALLY hard lesson today. well cant say I learned it. but i was reminded of it. and it hurts. but. you cannot grasp onto anything to provide yourself with inner peace, happiness, or a center. The only place you can ever get that, permanently, undiluted, unfailing...... is within yourself. no relationship is permanent. they are merely relative. nothing lasts. but nothing is lost. everything is constantly changing in the universe. i am one single individual person navigating through it. there is no need for another to even understand what goes on inside my head. i am the only one that knows, and it doesnt matter.
still i crave the feeling of being loved and I have not felt it for so long. i have so much love to give. it is difficult for me to separate unconditional love for another human being with the fact that nothing lasts and nothing is lost.
