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Nothing has worked and ive tried so hard i dont want to continue living this way

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datjew

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im 21 and ive been to at least 17 treatment centers in the past 3 and 1/2 years and nothing has worked ive been sober for 6+ months only to go back to opiates

idk what to do im planning on going to detox on monday but i don't think aa will help me and i feel hopeless
 
Do you feel that replacement therapy would be a viable alternative to cyclic detoxing? That's a lot of treatment centers!
 
do u mean methadone or suboxone? ive been to the methadone clinic and it didnt turn out well i was using benzos heavy and i ended up getting arrested selling drugs to cover the <snip> day dose we have in FL. and my family doesnt think going back to it for an extended period of time is a good idea..
 
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family, lack of success, sense of entitlement, lack of material goods IE, car apartment girlfriend (which is selfish of me i know). are all among other things
 
Ok..you said methadone didn't work out...have you considered buprenorphine?

You are so ypund with your whole life ahead of you (I know, that sounds so cliche, but true). Don't give up hope. Besides there are other options besides NA.
 
well I go to AA for personal reasons NA really sucks down here.. i have tried bupe for about 2 months but ended up selling them all for roxis.. this was about 2 years ago when roxies were still big down here.. and what are the other alternatives ill try pretty much anything cuz ive been down just about every path.
 
good luck!! you really have to change your thinking and work on creating and environment that will motivate/facilitate this.

17+ treatment centers. every 3ish months you have been in treatment for the past 3.5yr's.... .

right with missmeyet?, you are at a great age in understanding addiction, your addiction, such valuable knowledge/awareness to carry in all the life you have ahead of you.

do you have a plan for after detox??

you can break this cycle!! stay strong, try to work some thoughts on a new recovery plan. this thread could be the start of a great record for you in helping with direction and for sure full wonderful support! you are going to do great. <3
 
im going to a halfway house and then going to an iop and im also gonna volunteer at an AA/NA clubhouse (per court order).. hopefully ill find some friends who want to get better and better myself in the process.. thanks for all of your support and ill update y'all and let u know how things are going when i get out in 7-9 days
 
youre at the sober house now? or in detox? what are you using? what is the dosage? seems like you've been in detoxes so much that you barley had a chance to use. youre young, so think strong and realize that you have a life ahead of you. I am 30 now and blew so much money, time, lies, experience attached to the drug. I was heavy heroin user. I started off on 80's years ago. Went away to jail at 21 because I was caught selling/trafficking. I stayed sober for 5 years after going away. Around 27 I stepped into the perc 30 scene and since then have spent all my money, my life, my EVERYTHING on opiates. I was a heavy Heroin user for the last 2-3 years. Never thought I'd be the dope fiend I was.

I FINALLY feel GREAT.. CLEAN AND SOBER! I look back, man.. and just see the shit I did. It makes me sick. I WISH I had someone tell me at 21 to SMARTEN THE FUCK UP! I didnt have those people in my life, and wasnt part of any message board. I was too busy using, selling, and doing whatever it took to get the rush! Same goes for my later years.. apparently jail didnt smarten me up enough.. but OD'ing did. I've been clean since my OD and have no urge, no nothing! I feel great! I look at past life and it sickens me the money spent, time served, time blown, etc.. who knows the differences but I can tell you this.. the drugs have SET ME BACK! I wish I had the people/message board that you seem to have. No one ever took me to detox, just the police. No one cared what happened.. I hid my abuse and it only abused me more.

Step up man and get sober.. it's time!
 
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