Brutal BMW Driver
Bluelighter
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- Sep 19, 2005
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Hi,
I have been mega depressed for the last 3 years. Im 29 now, im not really a drug user, but when i was about 23 me and my friends went through a pill phase where we dropped x every weekend, 2-3 pills for like 1.5 years, then we just stopped entirely and I havnt had any since, just the odd toke of a joint these days, anyway since about then ive been quite depressed with it getting really bad over the last 3 years. I was on lexapro for a few years then i just quit one day and felt great for about a year, but then got depressed again, now im on 375mg of effexor, and i feel it has helped a bit with my social anxiety, but i still feel brutally depressed all the time, that knot of depression deep in your stomach. Just recently I started smoking bud, a few small pipes a few times a week, and dropping vallium and codeine/paracetamol pills every day and it is the only time im not depressed. I dont know if i should quit the effexor, and also whether I should take more drugs just so at least im not depressed all the time.
I know it is a stupid question but if i could get a grain of help its worth giving it a shot.
Thanks
I have been mega depressed for the last 3 years. Im 29 now, im not really a drug user, but when i was about 23 me and my friends went through a pill phase where we dropped x every weekend, 2-3 pills for like 1.5 years, then we just stopped entirely and I havnt had any since, just the odd toke of a joint these days, anyway since about then ive been quite depressed with it getting really bad over the last 3 years. I was on lexapro for a few years then i just quit one day and felt great for about a year, but then got depressed again, now im on 375mg of effexor, and i feel it has helped a bit with my social anxiety, but i still feel brutally depressed all the time, that knot of depression deep in your stomach. Just recently I started smoking bud, a few small pipes a few times a week, and dropping vallium and codeine/paracetamol pills every day and it is the only time im not depressed. I dont know if i should quit the effexor, and also whether I should take more drugs just so at least im not depressed all the time.
I know it is a stupid question but if i could get a grain of help its worth giving it a shot.
Thanks