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Not sure if you remember me...

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kaossalami

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Not sure if any of you remember me, but about a year ago I was heavily addicted to adderall. I'm now on 40mg prescribed dosage from a 200/250mg i was taking daily. Hope all is well.
 
I recall the name, but I'm afraid that's about it. The ol' bear-trap of a mind gets a mite rusty over the years, methinks.

Thanks for the update! I take it that you're using as-prescribed? Did you taper down? Cold-turkey followed by getting the script? Inquiring minds want to know more of your tale!
 
I got on adderall legitimately to treat my ADHD. I'm bipolar too. Thing is, if i took high amounts of the shit, made me feel good, you all know what i'm talking about. I also had less manic. March 22nd, 2011 was the last time I took a recreational dose of adderall. I quit cold turkey. I popped my whole prescription, dropped out of school, and just focused on day to day living, making myself happy and whatnot. I didnt take any adderall for 3 months. I finally went back to school that July. I asked my doctor to put me back on adderall. I was driven enough to get my transfer degree. That was a goal i had set when i was 15 years old... finally completely when i'm 20. 3 Years late, whatever, got it done. I made a promise to myself, my family, and my wonderful girlfriend that i would never abuse the shit again. I still miss it, and i still remember it pretty damn clearly. I'm trying to keep my head on straight, sometimes its tough. I always tried my hardest to make others happy, but in response, fucked myself over. You have to take care of yourself before you can take care of others.

I'm happier now than I have been in a long time.

-kg
 
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