My low tolerance self is still going from the, like, 3 little bumps I've had hours ago. There's no more left. But yeah I gave in and am getting some tomorrow. I should feel bad or guilty about it, considering the rehab programs I was in, jail, etc. But meth was not really my problem. Xanax was. Because once you're on that, it's hell to try to come off it, so you have to just, well, not run out of it...
I've heard the withdrawal is worse than heroin. I wouldn't know about heroin but the Xanax withdrawal is the most painful, uncomfortable, and frustrating thing I've ever been thru. And I actually started using it legally, for my back spasms and panic... but I have Ativan or Klonopin now, much nicer to the body.
Anyway, I've been semi tweaked out on the computer all day, making up for a lot of time i was slacking and not doing anything online at all, but I am in control and I am fine with the fact that I'm not 100% on the sober wagon.
I think it's funny how you get busted one time, or have a problem with ONE drug or substance, and then it's gung-ho abstinence from EVERYTHING. For me, that's ridiculous. I had to go to court ordered AA for a month every day, and I'm not nearly an alcoholic, so I drink when I want to...
I know how some people need the 12-Step Programs. But they did nothing for me. Anyway, I'm logging off for awhile. Who knows, I might not come back on for two months, lol. Depends on everything.
I've heard the withdrawal is worse than heroin. I wouldn't know about heroin but the Xanax withdrawal is the most painful, uncomfortable, and frustrating thing I've ever been thru. And I actually started using it legally, for my back spasms and panic... but I have Ativan or Klonopin now, much nicer to the body.
Anyway, I've been semi tweaked out on the computer all day, making up for a lot of time i was slacking and not doing anything online at all, but I am in control and I am fine with the fact that I'm not 100% on the sober wagon.
I think it's funny how you get busted one time, or have a problem with ONE drug or substance, and then it's gung-ho abstinence from EVERYTHING. For me, that's ridiculous. I had to go to court ordered AA for a month every day, and I'm not nearly an alcoholic, so I drink when I want to...
I know how some people need the 12-Step Programs. But they did nothing for me. Anyway, I'm logging off for awhile. Who knows, I might not come back on for two months, lol. Depends on everything.
