Things aren't much better. Today it was alcohol and soma and I was gone being led around the store so my ex fiance could frost my hair pink for me. Of course I'm totally fucked up. And I run into one of my mom's friends.
Who by the way called to tell me I lost my job, my boss never did. To tell me she has my final check for me. No way she didn't know I was fucked.
So we do my hair maybe if I have a reason go get dressed and put makeup on I'll post pics but I doubt I'll find one for awhile.
I went to lay down and sleep it off. I remember asking my mom something later and she had said I told her I didn't want to do it. So lord knows what else I said. No wonder she thinks I'm on drugs. I am. Just not ones you can test for.
MY kitten drives me crazy constantly rolling on the floor playing with things, getting into things, biting at all hours of the day and night. I said I wanted a puppy. I needed something will a calm soothing temperment, but no I get fire ball from hell. Who by the way likes to sleep under by bed and not with me and strangely I take it personally.
As for BL, I think I'm gonna read around, offer my advice when I can and keep my shit here. Because it seems all I get is negative. Maybe I am an attention seeker- in my defense the blogs were down- but I'm sure there are a lot of others, especially on the nudie thread to do it all just attention. Why else do it? Why am I the one to be condemned why do some people just have this dislike for me forsome reason? Guess I won't know.
I'm depressed, wish I was dead but so far too much of a chickenshit to
A walk to my brother's room load his rifle sit in the bath tub (less clean up) and blow my brains out
B wrap a rope fro one side of the door handle throw it over the top, shut the door and tie a noose on the other end.
C Fil the car with leaded fuel and leave it running all night with me in it or
D Find somethign to OD on that wiill actualy work...
thats it. I hurt and I want it to stop and I don't know how. Just takemy meds and pay they start somehow to work...
Who by the way called to tell me I lost my job, my boss never did. To tell me she has my final check for me. No way she didn't know I was fucked.
So we do my hair maybe if I have a reason go get dressed and put makeup on I'll post pics but I doubt I'll find one for awhile.
I went to lay down and sleep it off. I remember asking my mom something later and she had said I told her I didn't want to do it. So lord knows what else I said. No wonder she thinks I'm on drugs. I am. Just not ones you can test for.
MY kitten drives me crazy constantly rolling on the floor playing with things, getting into things, biting at all hours of the day and night. I said I wanted a puppy. I needed something will a calm soothing temperment, but no I get fire ball from hell. Who by the way likes to sleep under by bed and not with me and strangely I take it personally.
As for BL, I think I'm gonna read around, offer my advice when I can and keep my shit here. Because it seems all I get is negative. Maybe I am an attention seeker- in my defense the blogs were down- but I'm sure there are a lot of others, especially on the nudie thread to do it all just attention. Why else do it? Why am I the one to be condemned why do some people just have this dislike for me forsome reason? Guess I won't know.
I'm depressed, wish I was dead but so far too much of a chickenshit to
A walk to my brother's room load his rifle sit in the bath tub (less clean up) and blow my brains out
B wrap a rope fro one side of the door handle throw it over the top, shut the door and tie a noose on the other end.
C Fil the car with leaded fuel and leave it running all night with me in it or
D Find somethign to OD on that wiill actualy work...
thats it. I hurt and I want it to stop and I don't know how. Just takemy meds and pay they start somehow to work...