Not going to make it

There is a person who I love dearly, and she has more than an emotional investment in me. I've already prepared her, but it's still going to fuck her life up when she's already been set back ten years before she met me. I'll stick it out until our attorney figures out a way for her to be okay, but after that I'm gone. I don't even know if I'll get that far though, because sometimes I don't have the patience and go into a blackout mode where I forget the importance of the only reason I'm sticking around. But I'm not afraid anymore. If I didn't have unfinished business I'd be gone right after I click the post button. No one can help me, and I'm tired of pretending that they can. Enjoy the lulz while they last, just remember that they have a definite expiration date. Peace.

 

I respect your decision, although it's sad to hear. I also intend to end my life at some stage (my life is filled with a lot of pain, going nowhere, and my outlook for the future isn't bright). I just haven't set a date yet or decided on the method.

 

You know my opinion on this CB. I won't re-iterate it for everyone to hear, but you know.

Be well.

 

You know how to reach me if you need to talk

 

Cb