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bpayne

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I havent had any weed for about a week and a half, why am I such an asshole when I can't get stoned? I literally feel like killing people, which isnt a light thing for me to say considering I've been to prison 3 times amounting to over 12 years of my life, how can I not want to hurt annoying people? or even people who I normally care about but get annoying? when I'm stoned I'm MUCH nicer

aaargh, I had some plants growing but had to trash them because of the Bitch manager that works here finding marijuana and reporting it, I swear if the cops come this time, I'm shooting it out with them. I'm not going back to prison :X
 
mans that havent done real federal time cannot understand/relate....

When i get angry/start feelin like im gonna go hit a lick, usualy thats exactly what i do. but sometimes a valium or 2 will help me relax.

n this new lloyd banks mixtape is so fire, its not helpin me relax
 
IMO, you need to stop self-medicating yourself with marijuana and go see a doctor about your mental/emotional issues.

If these thoughts are normal to you when sober and/or you are contemplating acting on your violent impulses, then it sounds like there is an underlying issue/problem your ignoring here.
 
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I totally understand what your going through,

but I don't feel violent unless someone sparks it
 
what i do is when i get super frustrated or pissed with someone i punch a refigerator. sounds dumb but it hurts so much that the pain takes your mind of dumbasses. also imagine the fridge is the dumbass person=)
 
^ Yeah, but I've broken a fridge and a hand that way :P Not such a good idea anymore, but my knuckles are stronger for all the bullshit i've punched.

Dude, see a doc. It's usually not to hard to get some trees, I can understand bein a little frustrated not being able to get it but if ya furious its probably not any kind of W/D. Drinking is a good alternative if you are with your buddies and you are bored as fuck.
 
I'm sure that made them all think 'wow this man is right!'

If i don't smoke for a week I get more irritable but i used to be like that before i was a stoner too.

the weed helped me calm down lol.
 
or more constructively, marijuana also calms my violent urges to. I never have been to prison, but i understand part of my psyche leans towards violence. Marijuana is medicine, keeping you from harming yourself or others.
My advice always have marijuana
Second look up kava kava, its a relaxing herb that will help you accept a safer route to life while maintaining your core strength and dignity. it changes the way emotions are processed, very interesting stuff
 
maybe you have a different experience of emotional intensity than other people plainview, how can you really know? it is arrogance to assume that control of emotions is the same as one for another. Your emotions can often express a higher truth than your intellect, trying to 'control' your emotions will stop your growth as a person. You have to let them live and yet handle them.
 
When people are annoying you, tell them and kindly ask for them to stop whatever it is that bothers you.

If they persist, walk away.

All you have to do is walk away. Just because a person's habit annoys you doesn't justify hitting, hurting, or murdering them whatsoever, it just shows that you have a lack of self-control and think that everybody should act/talk/live/whatever in a way that you can peacefully co-exist with 24/7.



Seriously, I get annoyed by people on a daily basis but I rarely consider killing them. I just.... walk away.
 
See, this is where the line ends between recreational use and a serious drug problem. It's normal for a regular smoker to become irritable when he can't smoke, but it's not even close to okay to feel like you could physically hurt someone. I don't know you or your history, and I'm going to pretend I do. But that fact that you spent 12 years in prison makes me think that you're either extremely unlucky or that you have problems controlling your behavior period, and weed doesn't have a whole lot to do with the bigger picture.

You need to see a professional. This is beyond the scope of an online help forum.
 
bpayne said:
I havent had any weed for about a week and a half, why am I such an asshole when I can't get stoned? I literally feel like killing people, which isnt a light thing for me to say considering I've been to prison 3 times amounting to over 12 years of my life, how can I not want to hurt annoying people? or even people who I normally care about but get annoying? when I'm stoned I'm MUCH nicer

aaargh, I had some plants growing but had to trash them because of the Bitch manager that works here finding marijuana and reporting it, I swear if the cops come this time, I'm shooting it out with them. I'm not going back to prison :X
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Grow inside yo crib nigga
 
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It's pathetic to me when humans arent in control of their emotions. I see it as a weakness.

If you dont feel like a visit to a psychiatrist ...perhaps a nice healthy dose of a strong psychedelic will help you do some soul searching & straighten things out. That is, after all, what they are here for.
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wow that brought light to my life

i have 0 control over my emotions
but I think it's who I am

and who I became

it's a total weakness for sure,
how do you change that ?
 
^ You only think you have no control over your emotions. You can listen to what your feelings are trying to tell you -- because they ARE important -- without allowing them to enslave you. There is an old saying: The mind is a wonderful servant, but a terrible master.

OP, as has been advised, it would be a good idea for you to talk to a professional about your feelings, before it's too late, and you're back behind bars for something really serious.

And to those who suggested that alcohol may be the answer...... no.

Fail. :(
 
why am I such an asshole when I can't get stoned?
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IMHO, this may be because there are issues in your life that havent been sorted out, so it seems like you rely on the drug to fix them.

when I'm stoned I'm MUCH nicer
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OP, i dont think this forum can help you > if anything, the majority of replies have been to seek professional help > there's a reason for it. Truth.
It's hard to admit when you have a problem. Ive had to admit that myself regarding my own drug use. But as the saying goes, its the first step to recovery.
Good luck.
 
its a common respnse to mental dependancy on a substance anger and depression when not high. substitute it or grow somewhere better if u dont want to quit u probably never will
 
I get grumpy for about a day or two if i dont have my stuff man, but if i still havent had after that day or two it goes away, its like a day or 2 of withdrawal in a small sort of way
 
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