We can't really tell you how to get high (especially with such limited information that you have provided). It can enter dangerous territory if someone were to direct you towards unsafe, unknown substances and obscure dosages.
Sometimes we just have to go through a night of unpleasantness until something proper comes along at another time. This 'jones' will be uncomfortable but it will pass and you'll probably get your 'get some' sooner than later.
Feel free to peruse the rest of the site for any safety information you may be seeking.
That's really not what this site is about. Maybe you need to vent here, so you are making some odd posts. You're obviously going through a hard time. Why don't you spend some time with your family or do something else you enjoy instead?