princessofslaanesh
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- Jun 19, 2014
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I have no problem with enjoying MDMA or marijuana.... yet when it comes to psychedelics, I can't enjoy them even though I have the desire to try them and do them. I decided to try DXM tonight, and I put myself on a low dosage for my weight (75kg), so that I could have a chill trip, not too intense. I was enjoying the music, but now I'm just in a loop of thinking about things I don't want to think about to ruin my trip. It's like I need to keep control of the trip... I was told at this point of my peak I shouldn't even be able to read text that easily, yet here I am writing pretty easily... I feel drunk and itchy but that's about it. I guess not easily, I am rambling.... but I just wish I could enjoy psychedelics like others do. I tried acid a few months ago and it was the worst experience of my life. I was terrified the whole trip and could not wait until it was over. Is this something to do with me... am I too mentally weak to handle psychedelics? I was diagnosed bipolar disorder (two) a few years back.... Have not been on meds in a while because I haven't needed them for a minute... This past year though has been tough I guess, and perhaps I am not taking these drugs in the right mindset, even though I do all the research I can possibly do to use responsibly... It is like the slightest thing can ruin my trip.... Like I am just not able to let go and allow the drug to take me over for the duration of the trip... back of my head there is this nagging about allt he things I want to ignore.
dosage was 300mg
Any insight? Perhaps I should stay away from psychedelics altogether because I can't seem to handle them even though I want to do them.
dosage was 300mg
Any insight? Perhaps I should stay away from psychedelics altogether because I can't seem to handle them even though I want to do them.