Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
so my sort of boyfriend but its complicated cos i fucked it up in my addiction is sitting downstairs listening to music of what i consider to be a golden age of UK punk rock. for me its music from a more innocent age, when i just really loved booze and benzos and weed and would be at the front at every show pissed out of my head but then everyone there was, i could still sing all the words and stand up and have fun.
its really made me want to cry for that lost innocence. before the heroin and crack, before all the violence, before prostitution, before dodgy ass injection practises, arrest, having no money for food, and no fun ever.
i am really stressed about my job and scared about my future cos of that, so i'm a bit over sensitive. when i heard that music i had a wave of nostalgiac euphoria followed by a gut wrenching urge to just sob about everything i've thrown away. i've been clean 18 months but i know i could end up back at my worst in a heartbeat. i'm working on fixing what i can, but, in the words of one of my favourite bands from that period of my life 'there are mistakes you can't correct.'
its really made me want to cry for that lost innocence. before the heroin and crack, before all the violence, before prostitution, before dodgy ass injection practises, arrest, having no money for food, and no fun ever.
i am really stressed about my job and scared about my future cos of that, so i'm a bit over sensitive. when i heard that music i had a wave of nostalgiac euphoria followed by a gut wrenching urge to just sob about everything i've thrown away. i've been clean 18 months but i know i could end up back at my worst in a heartbeat. i'm working on fixing what i can, but, in the words of one of my favourite bands from that period of my life 'there are mistakes you can't correct.'
