O yea and I would like to revisit one month ago when i finally shot up again for the first time in 4 yrs and would tell myself to do a 2 bag shot instead of a 1 cuz those bags was new n i didnt kno they werent that great yet lol.
I would like to revisit the time that I posted this. Also, just for all the young bucks out there who still think its all fun and great - 17 days after i made that post in quotes i got arrested for the first time for heroin.
That time over the spring and beginning of the summer I would love to return to. Hot 97 was always playin on the radio. And all the songs, in my mind, were about diesel. that Cassie n Fabolous joint My Addiction? "Im addicted to youuuu......Youre my addiction!" Mmhmmm. Jay Z - I know? Oh hell yea, that one dont even try to hide that its about heroin. Everything i heard in some way reminded me of dope. Oh yea, and haha. Maino - HI HATER!! That song was on EVERY corner in the hood in paterson. Every stop light you hit, you heard "hustle hard, stack paper......HI HATER!" bangin out the window of the car next to you. That song is now like my summertime hood anthem lol. MIA- Paper planes, that remix with 50 was hot. "First ya hear the first shot then ya hear the second shot by the time you hear the third shot see a nigga drop, then ya hear the fourth shot then ya hear the fifth shot 38 revolver only hold 6 shots." Man all the hot music and stamps were out last summer.
me and my ridin partner did our thing everyday pretty much. I used to love fridays cuz he got paid fridays and wed go get a brick or a couple bundles and just get fuckin shit-ass faded. id ride shotgun, at that point i still would let him boot me up cuz i had a shaky hand (that lasted like 3 weeks then i was right into bootin myself again.....) but man it was the beginning of my re-addiction to dope. Sure I had been back on doing dope for a while before that but it was overpriced, not copped in the hood shit. And i had been in the hood alot since then but it wasnt on dope blocks it was chillin with my peoples. Even tho alot of my peoples trapped on dope blocks but anyways my point was i was in the hood to chill not to cop. But when i went back to coppin IN the hood after a long "im clean and i aint gonna fuck around and get locked up" break, damn that was it for me i couldnt do it no other way. bein a hood chick i cant NOT cop in the hood or I jus feel like i got took.
So my point is the summer was heatin up. pavement was shinin with heat waves and the radio was full of hot shit and the blocks was all, cars lined up, block parties, lil kids in the street, chirp chirp chirp up the block. Yall know the sound of the bleep? THAT right there is the sound of the hood in jerz. How many jersey heads wanna co sign me do it right here cuz yall know its true. Lightin up the night all over the hood block to block all the way from 10th ave down to the dogg pound you hear bleep bleep bleep echoin down the block, the sound of the trap stars gettin that money workin all night long chillin posted up dice rollin and fortys poppin sirens wailin in the distance. aint nothing like a summer night in the hood. And when youre young, un handcuffed, and just at the very beginning of re-starting a addiction that has plagued you since you were 16 but you dont realized it at the time, damn life feels fuckin GOOD. yea id go back if i could. Warm air blowin around my bare arms rockin a guinea T and a fitted laughin when I got him discounts on the diesel for smilin just right at dope boy cuz they love servin shortys.
Fuck. That first shot i took after 3 years of no heroin. God DAMN. I still remember not being able to hear as it rushed around me. melting into the car seat.
Smokin base on route 80 shifting for him while his hands were on the stem and then puffin some of them vapors too on top of the stupid-good dope high i had. I used to show up at peoples houses at night too high to go home and theyd give me a bed cuz i was nodding so hard that i was blackin out while i was drivin thinkin i was good to drive.
My friends was worried. My man left me. But damn i didnt care i felt so good.
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