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Nostalgia,Reminisce, Back in the day....What phase of your use would you re visit?

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Whas up peeps. I got a topic for yall to think on and lemme know what you think.

There has been all kinda phases in my life of different drug use, and the same way that music, smells, places, and etc can bring you back, it seems like (tome at least) that when drugs are involved its a ever stronger feeling.

When i look back on those different times or go to the places i use to go, or hear a song to bring me back, sometimes I start gettin all backwards thinkin of those times. It always seems so great when you look back on shit right.

You wanna move forward, but sometimes i catch myself thinkin back a lil too much, almost wishin it could be that way again, and I dont like that shit. I aint tryna live in the past. but sometimes I just be thinkin of the way shit was and wish for all the world i could go back.

So this is a 2 part question.

1 - Does this drug nostalgia ever happen to you?

2 - What are the times that you think of the most? Tell us what time of drug use or what drug experience in your life that you would go back to and re experience if you could, and describe it and why you feel that way.
 
I think it would be cool to go back to when i was jus turned 16 when I was doin every drug on the regular just about and my mental was just like fuckit. I jus ran around in crazy schemes one after the other like not givin a fuck. It aint a good way to be for a LONG time, but i jus remember that feelin of freedom when i would just easily take any offer and do shit totally on the spur of the moment creatin some crazy tales and experiences. Rollin, cokin it up, goin to new places, crashin in peoples houses that i aint even know, wakin up every single mornin like what the hell is today gonna bring, whatever it is I know it will be nutz. So for me thats prolly it. Either that or when i first used oxy (i was already in love with dope, hadnt used for mad long, and oxy was a new kinda feeling) and it felt so damn special to have a 80 in my hand and know that i was fucken SET for a night. Before the thrill wore off ya kno?
 
I get that . If I had to choose one period of my drug use to experience again, it'd probably be my honeymoon period with Ecstasy.

I was 16, still in school, and still living with my parents. I was relatively carefree with only minor responsiblities to things like bills and work. I had a large group of friends I hung out with regularly, and man, when we first discovered MDMA it was amazing. All the nights we spent in the house or garage listening to music and fucking with glowsticks, my first rave and the newfound sense of community, feeling like everything was perfect in the world. There was a certain level of innocence(and naivety) because it was something totally new to us, and I remember often thinking that life couldn't get any better.

Of course the harsher realities set in eventually. We all went from taking it for the fascinatingly blissful experience to taking it because we were bored on a Saturday night and wanted to get high. The negatives started to outweigh the positives and it became more of a bane than a boon. Still, that first six months was nothing short of magical.
 
yeah it happens a lot... well i don't know, sometimes it's about the times i was 15-16, when i discovered e's, other times it's about 17 when i took lsd everyday, other times it's about 16 again when i snorted methcathinone with friends before school, other times it's about 12-13 when i discovered weed, other times it's about 18 when i hang out at nights at random places on heroin careless & didnt think about anything but getting high... my acid trips...
but yeah, i sometimes miss the spirit of those times, or myself at those times who knows.


fuck dat, i'm clean!:)
 
I miss my first LSD experience, because this was a fucking GOOD night. All my friends went to a festival, I didn't had a ticket so I stayed outside with all the other guys that didn't have any tickets. I met three cool guys and we decided to find as many drugs as we could. There was so many people outside, it was fucking sick! We had weed, speed, MDMA and a as much alcool as we wanted. Everybody was sharing their drugs, everybody was HIGH and I didn't know anybody. At 11pm with my three new mates, we found LSD. It was in a bottle, so put a few drops on a little piece of cardboard for later, but we where so fucked we couldn't remember in what part of the cardboard we put the LSD. So we ate the cardboard randomly and entirely, haha. At 3am I wasn't experiencing any effets from the LSD and I was to drunk, so I got back home, happy because it was an excellent night (I guess it wouldn't have been so fun if I would have manage getting in the festival), but disapointed because of the LSD. And on at home, alone, the LSD started hiting me like FUCKING CRAZY. I tripped alone from 4am to midday. I talked nonsense with my housemates when they got up at 8am to work, I laughed during 2 hours nonstop, I phoned to a friend, I took a bath, I played with my dog, I had sick hallucinations, I rediscovered all the albums of DJ Shadow... I was thinking "Crap, how could have I missed that until today? Life is crazy, blahblah!".
Oh god! This was the best night in my whole life! =)
 
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I think it would be cool to go back to when i was jus turned 16 when I was doin every drug on the regular just about and my mental was just like fuckit. I jus ran around in crazy schemes one after the other like not givin a fuck
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I second that!! Doing drugs, getting drugs, dealing, ripoffs,theft wonderful times...........

Everything I could get my hands on!!!

Happens alot to me, nostalgia!!!
 
Smoking weed in friends cars in high school. First few months of rolling. Selling herb, making tons of money, discovering heroin, first IV shot ever, spending thousands of dollars on heroin lol, then the bad times that followed I don't miss to much though.

I miss the carefree days of drug use...tripping with friends, rolling, whatever. It was so fun because it was such a new experience.
 
I'd go back to the days where I first started taking ecstacy - but I'd like to take back the knowledge that I know now, maybe then I'd never fuck myself up.

Saying that, im kinda glad I fucked myself up because it made me decide to go out there and educate myself on drugs and I lived through depression and self harm which has made me a stronger and better person.
 
id go back to the days when all i cared about was that i was high and i was having fun. before i realized other things existed in life, before i cared about anything.

I just remember those times sitting on a park bench on a sunny day getting high on whatever just thinking, this is fucking amazing. Didnt think about anything in the future. Now its should i take this should i do that, never do i just do something without thinking.

I guess in short id like to not care again, who cares, right?!
 
When I was a sophmore in high school and got cheap methadone, clonazepam, yola, bud, acid, anything and could get fucked up without worrying about the responsibilities, ect.
 
i get it all the time. ill be around somewhere that i used to cop and ill smell something, usually fried chicken and greasy food or that new car air freshener that my dope mans car always smelled like.

i look back at everything and am glad to be done with it honestly. it would be fun to go back and relive a few things, but most of it was tough. but it did shape me into who i am today.
 
GenericMind said:
I get that . If I had to choose one period of my drug use to experience again, it'd probably be my honeymoon period with Ecstasy.

I was 16, still in school, and still living with my parents. I was relatively carefree with only minor responsiblities to things like bills and work. I had a large group of friends I hung out with regularly, and man, when we first discovered MDMA it was amazing. All the nights we spent in the house or garage listening to music and fucking with glowsticks, my first rave and the newfound sense of community, feeling like everything was perfect in the world. There was a certain level of innocence(and naivety) because it was something totally new to us, and I remember often thinking that life couldn't get any better.
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That is the same exact answer (almost) that I was going to put. I am constantly thinking about those days. To be specific, the very first time I ever took ecstasy is a day that I would do anything I had to do to be able to relive it. Like you say, everything felt perfect. I had really close friends with me all the time, I had very little responsibilities, and it was just like I gained the ability to view a world that I was once totally familiar and comfortable with from a new perspective. It was strange at first, but it was enlightening to learn the things I had learned.

I remember coming home from a night out in the middle of summer and me and like 8 of my friends would just lay on my front my lawn from like 1am to 4am just staring up at the sky and talking about the most random things, and thinking to myself how simple yet perfect things were. I remember never wanting the nights to end because I knew that I would never be able to experience that exact same set of events again, but I wouldnt be disappointed because I knew there was so much more to do. I remember meeting random people at coffee shops or supermarkets and carnivals and them being my best friend for 5 minutes.

I miss it all so much. Its actually difficult for me to think about sometimes.
 
"oh shit someone put ket. in my pills" A mate of mine said this while fucked and remids me of my ket./ mdma combos of my teens
i dunno if this has anything to do with the thread,couldnt be fucked to read it, just makes me laugh
 
i miss when pills wer eactually good and clean... that 1 pill would get me rolling for 6 hours... i miss my honey moon period with heroin.. before it fucked me.

i miss when i had unlimited access to drugs when i was younger.....in highschool, those were the fucking days. :(
 
I miss my first summer with weed. We were so young, so paranoid. Having to venture off to the nearby forest. Same spot, every day. And then walking back, thinking everyone knows your high, thinking every person with a dog is undercover. Then finally making it to the safehouse and just eating and laughing and jumping in the pool + shower with your clothes on, and repeating. Such a fun time.
 
Id go back to my first roll and my first love parade. The memories were so happy.

Although I have to say that most other parts of my drug use I wouldn't go back to.
 
The first couple months with speed were pure magic. I felt like I could do anything. I lost weight, kept my apartment immaculately clean, and excelled at school. I had a close group of friends that were all getting strung out together and the sense of community was indescribable. We'd just sit together for days at a time bullshitting, talking philosophy, scheming on how to get money and drugs, doing schoolwork ... and then the paranoia set in ... and health problems, mental and physical. It truly was the best of times and the worst of times. I had similar honeymoon periods with alcohol, weed, coke, opiates ... most of which wound up biting me in the ass. It's a running theme.
 
The first 10 raves or so I went to in (southside chi/suburbs chi/ kenosha& madison wisconsin. Lotsa of dope fun..... lots of rolls... everything was perfect then.... Anyone remember Another Tale Of 2 Cities, or Turned on 2?

Besides that my honeymoon phase of heroin was pretty nice. Until withdrawl and IV us came. Helllllllllllllllllllllllllllooooooooooooooooo addiction and crime.
 
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