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Nostalgia of the peak

Tyd

Tyd

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Hey dudes and dudettes,

I had the most wonderous and magical night of probably my entire life yesterday thanks to MDMA, we all know what thats like :), but my question is this:

I've rolled 4 times now, despite each time being incredible I've always at some point had this sinking feeling of sadness right in the middle of my peak or just after it or in between the "rolls"/"waves". My friend described it best when he said it's as if its nostalgia of the peak, I feel suddenly sad that the intensity has dropped a tiny bit. Does anyone else get this?

These moments only last maybe 5mins tops, 1min usually before I think of something else, something distracts me or I just start coming up on another wave. By the end of the night I don't get it, by that point I'm happy to come down slowly but I always seem to get it during the most intense part of the night. I go from bursting with happiness and joy to suddenly feeling hugely depressed all in a really small amount of time. It might only happen once or twice in the night.

Just like to know if this is common with anyone? Or whether this may be something specific to my psyche, which I could buy.
 
done E many times and never experienced that. always a smooth experience, no dips or ups and downs, just simply up for ages and gradually down
 
I know exactly what you mean, that's happened to me a couple times the first few times I did it. The friend I was rolling with for both our second times almost had a bad trip just as he started peaking because he knew it was going to end eventually lol. But it wasn't hard to talk him back into enjoying the time. That's all it is though, the realization that no matter how good you feel at that time, it's going to end. Or the realization that x amount of time has gone by and you only have x amount of time left.

I never get it anymore though, once you get used to the comedown enough, its not as sad.
 
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I don't know if I would call it nostalgia, but whenever I have a really good roll and I realize that I am starting to come down, I do feel just a little bit sad, because I know I am not going to be feeling as good as I was feeling 5 minutes ago. So yeah, I guess this does happen to some people.
 
This started happeneing to me when i was doing MDMA far too much and starting to lose the magic. This obviously isn't your problem, assuming it happened the first time you rolled as well. Have you been spacing out your uses appropiately?

My roll would be as intense as normal but end abruptly, or start to taper off far too soon, and all I wanted was the roll back. But alas no amount of MDMA would get the roll back after that point. It sucks wanting that feeling back and being able to do jack about it haha.
That's when I took a break and now roll responsibly, No longer (ab)use MDMA for a simple high.

Possibly try using one of the 'racetams, look into pre and post loading. The 'Racetams are marvelous nootropics and i know many that can attest to that, they're even great for daily supplements.


Haha First post on BL. Lurked for ages, finally had to sign up and post this after testing 130mg of pure white molly for the first time in months :D Coming on nicely

Hope you can sort out this problem man. I think a good thing is to go into the experience with no expectations and just enjoy what comes to you, go with the flow and you wont be disapointed intead of chasing a high
 
Yeah not all of my mates get this, out of 6 of us it's just me and another who gets it. It is kinda like shady says, for some reason realising you've been going x amount of time and theres x time left.

Welcome DMTwizard :P, cheers for the advice, yeah I've been spacing them fine, 2 months, 6 weeks. I tried piracetam the second time, taking it 2 weeks beforehand and it kind of ruined my experience to be honest. I really didn't need it, I was just taking it for studying anyway and thought it would be interesting. I felt it made me so lucid and aware of the experience I wasn't sure I was "in" the experience, it was strange, I had a great time eventually but I didn't get over this soberness until I'd taken 250mg! Strange stuff. I can definitely see how it would help people who have lost the magic though, the stimulant effects and overall time of the experience was potentiated a lot.

I think it's mostly part of my psyche, I don't suppose it helped having taken mushrooms during night as well :P. This was probably why I was overthinking my experience sometimes. However the mushrooms also made my first peak so incredibly intense there could have been no other outcome than an abrupt landing down to Earth. There's a part of me that doesn't deal well with dissapointment and I try to avoid hyping up the night and the experience but it's hard not to haha. I think I'm always going to get this blip and maybe it will go away with time but as I said it's not a huge problem, just wondering if other people had shared this experience! Cheers for the input.
 
I'm always a little bummed when I know the nights coming to an end. I think this is a pretty common feeling and the reason many people want to dose repeatedly, myself included. Occasionally I'll realize what time it is and that I only have a an hour or 2 left and I get down for 30 seconds or so, and then I forget about the end until it's happening. At that point I've probably smoked a fair amount of weed as well and my attention span is non-existent...all thoughts are in and out.
 
Oh man, I know exactly what you're talking about. For me this happens right after the peak, a brief realization of where you are and that this false happiness is fleeting... I've learned to actually enjoy it though, since it's usually followed a few more good waves of euphoria for the next hour. (if its a good roll :))

The more i get to know MDMA, the age old predicament is always there... It can only last for so long!
 
I get this on nearly every stimulant or mdma like substance nearly everytime and especially with psy drugs, not much i feel i can do about it apart from think positive and realise that the good times obviously outweighed the bad.
 
Yeah, I get you, but, just up your dose where you are on the border of comfort and uncomfort so your actually relived to be coming down ahahah, that's how I solved the problem!
 
^ Haha thats an idea, maybe I'll just be so relieved that I can see again! Instead of staring at my phone, moving it backwards and forwards thinking its fucked, I must have dropped it, the writings fucked! Oh wait.. its my eyes, haha.

It's good to know that other people get this in some way or another though.
 
That is the worst feeling...you know you want to read the text msg but can't because your eyes are wobbling all over the place...
 
I always get that, but it doesn't usually last that long. It's more like a few flashes of bad feelings & thoughts right after the peak. But have to admit that when I plan to reload, I often intentionally let myself get taken over by those feelings. As hard as it is at that moment, there's nothing better than another line/pill lifting you right back up to the sky when you thought it was all over already.
 
It's like going on holiday. Halfway through, you get that feeling that you know it's gotta end at some point. I get this on MDMA, but not to the point of depression.
 
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