None of my friends take my drug problem seriously?

[William Dex]

I don't expect to look 'cool' or 'hard' but when it comes up everyone treats my drug like it's tylenol. I don't know if I would call myself addicted but I certainly used to be. A few months ago I stopped taking Dexedrine XR due to severe psychosis caused by the drug. I'm still recovering...yet people say 'Oh well i've taken a couple Adderall, it just made me focused.' This isn't adderall and it sure as hell is not 20mg. I'm back on Concerta and wow it's shit. 18mg makes me feel like I'm visually hyper focused without being mentally focused, and it feels weak as hell and not recreational at all. I just hate how people never take me seriously when I say I'm craving and I need to go home and have some. It's not a drug for elementary kids that just makes you focused and helps you with your homework. It's a powerful stimulant that makes you grind your teeth, gives you OCD and paranoia, makes you feel powerful and like a million bucks. I've done coke, and shit I would call it SOFT. Coke for me was like I happy like on christmas morning as a kid and I was social as hell and it was smooth. Dexedrine is like you're going full throttle, you're on edge and you're chest is about to explode all while you have the gaze of a methhead, you can't stop cleaning, and if you fight the high you'll have a severe panic attack because you can never sit down and say I need to relax, you're on a rough high speed roller coaster until it wears off. When people think since it's a prescription it must not be that bad, well I'll tell you i grind my teeth more on this than i ever had on molly. To me, it's more addictive than cocaine. So why does everyone think it's a joke of a drug, people have even gone as far as to think i was on meth while high on it, that should say something. Also i never noticed this before but my watch looked like it would constantly slip up my wrist while it was still a couple days ago.

 

[Mad Dash]

Dude, first of all congrats on being able to admit to yourself that something is wrong. It does not matter what others think. EVER, it comes down to has you life become unmanageable? You need to get off of this shit. It seems to be ruining your life. If I were you I would look into seeing a psychiatrist and telling them about your problems. Don't say you are abusing them, but that they are causing you you all these problems. You need help, and it is not about your DOC being "cool" or "hard" you seem like you need help. Please go get some.

 

[Keif' Richards]

OP, it's good that you're aware of your problem and want to change it. In the end, addiction doesn't come down to the drug, it comes down to the person. If you are so affected by drug use that it is beginning to have negative affects on your life, then it's probably time to stop. dextroamphetamine is not a far cry from methamphetamine. They are both powerful stimulants with the ability to severely fuck up your body and mind.

The only safe aspect of prescription drug use, is that you know exactly what you're taking, although there are fake pills out there - for the most part, you can count on the pills you're taking containing what they're supposed to. Aside from that, all of these prescription drugs (stimulants, opioids, sedative/hypnotics etc.), carry just as much risk as there "street" counterparts.

I have often heard in 12-step meetings and detox facilities that denial plays a huge role for a lot of people in their addictions. I never experienced this so I really can't comment . I knew that I was psychologically addicted to drugs from almost the very beginning. I liked drugs and alcohol so much that I wanted them always and I knew that it was going to be a problem eventually. I think there's a lot of power in knowing and understanding your own patterns of addiction, so cheers to you for being able to confront it so early on. Do what you need to do to make your life stable, only you know how to do that. Others can help and give you guidance, but in the end, it's all up to you.

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

Congratulations for figuring out that you are addicted to Dexedrine/Amphetamines. A lot of people ignore that they have a problem, or do not want to accept it.

Talk to a medical professional, and be honest about how you abused Dexedrine and became addicted to it. Also look into NA, good luck.

 

[sekio]

od _>>> tds

 

[tocooperate]

OP, trust me.. i get it. long time adderall/amp abuser here. yea.. the fearing for my health kinda abuser. many props for facing this, the longest i lasted sober was 3 months.

not only do "those people" not get it, they also don't know what happens when you get to that point, where you surrender and rest the fate of your happiness, success, purpose.. on a seemingly endless chemical magic

that shit ends, devastatingly quick. it's not just about chemical imbalance, depression, amotivation.. it's about slowly realizing you might not be able to go back to just loving life and things. it's fucking terrifying.

re: the watch.. ive straddled the psychosis line plenty of times, but never hallucinated. the strange movements in the peripheries and "corners" (silly shadow people) ive come to expect at the end of long binges though it does not make it any less concerning or acceptable. if this isn't an isolated incident, i would definitely seek out some medical advice, even if it's not your primary pdoc, the sometimes brutal honesty that a second opinion can bring could be the thing that changes your life.

hit me up if you need to- it's a tough road that I hope to start down soon

 

[bakeryrogercow]

A lot of people down play someone else's drug use because they don't want to face their own problematic drug use. "Recreational" drug usage by definition is drug abuse. When I was still drinking, over the years, I had slowly surrounded myself with over heavy drinkers only. When I decided to stop, my group of friends all thought I was crazy, didn't have a problem, etc. Well, after sobering up and ignoring them, I realized that they all had problems too - no wonder they didn't want me to sober up. I didn't have a problem? Vodka for breakfast lunch and dinner. I would TELL them that I was doing this and they still said "no no no you're fine, just cut back".

 

[P.o.T.u.S]

Because some people are fn idiots.the media/docs tell people that adhd meds are good so most people don't know the dangers..amps are a stimulant none the less and it's even harder coming off a drug that u are prescribed...good job on getting off the dex

 

[Maya]

I think I was one of the lucky ones who was never judged by my close friends. One friend of mine helped me though my suffering and initial recovery. He can relate because his aunt used to be a cracked addict for so long so he knew how hard it was to be dealing with addiction. He was also there for his aunt and helped her through her recovery and now she is 12 years clean! I think it really depends on the group of people and how much their understanding is with addiction. Some are more accepting and open than others.