MyDoorsAreOpen
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Ever have just one bad experience with a drug or combo that just made you certain you'd never do it again? I think that happened with me yesterday. I used to have great times popping 100mg 5-htp and taking one monster bong hit. But yesterday I did it for the first time in a while. It was late at night and it was cold and slushy and nasty, my city is kinda poor, and most of the few people out were not folks you'd want to spend any time with.
I usually like taking a walk stoned. In pretty surroundings. It's been a long time since I've lived in a place with real winters though. But even Russia in mid January felt "warmer" somehow, at least in terms of vibe. I dunno.
What I do know is I'm moderately stoned again now, and I don't have any other mind-affecting substances in me. Ahh... this is the good old marijuananated feeling I fell in love with.
I thought 5-htp made weed more "profound". Just because it increased serotonin (which makes you feel good after all? The more the merrier right?), while I took a drug that worked on seratonin paths. Nah. It just makes me feel super disconnected and out of my body. It makes me paranoid as hell. I have audio hallucinations -- especially on a cold windy night. Visuals are harmless fun, but audio hallucinations fuck with my head. Then people say I look green and glazed over and about to pass out. So I lie down. But that's no better -- I can't sleep because of bizarre CEV's that aren't cartoonish or funny like the ones ecstasy gives. That goes on for some 2 hours. Or a length of time that feels subjectively like 2 hours. The next morning (5 hours later) I'm up for work and feel sober and actually pretty good all things considered. Actually thought to myself "lovely day for a toke" at work, which I never thought I'd say again last night.
I'm going to be really careful about taking drug "boosting" supplements of any kind in the future. It can really put a spin on the drug that you weren't expecting.
I usually like taking a walk stoned. In pretty surroundings. It's been a long time since I've lived in a place with real winters though. But even Russia in mid January felt "warmer" somehow, at least in terms of vibe. I dunno.
What I do know is I'm moderately stoned again now, and I don't have any other mind-affecting substances in me. Ahh... this is the good old marijuananated feeling I fell in love with.
I thought 5-htp made weed more "profound". Just because it increased serotonin (which makes you feel good after all? The more the merrier right?), while I took a drug that worked on seratonin paths. Nah. It just makes me feel super disconnected and out of my body. It makes me paranoid as hell. I have audio hallucinations -- especially on a cold windy night. Visuals are harmless fun, but audio hallucinations fuck with my head. Then people say I look green and glazed over and about to pass out. So I lie down. But that's no better -- I can't sleep because of bizarre CEV's that aren't cartoonish or funny like the ones ecstasy gives. That goes on for some 2 hours. Or a length of time that feels subjectively like 2 hours. The next morning (5 hours later) I'm up for work and feel sober and actually pretty good all things considered. Actually thought to myself "lovely day for a toke" at work, which I never thought I'd say again last night.
I'm going to be really careful about taking drug "boosting" supplements of any kind in the future. It can really put a spin on the drug that you weren't expecting.
