I have been feeling balanced in a positive, consistent manner lately. I attribute it to busting my ass at work and exercising.
Yesterday, I decided to not do my standard exercise routine and I had the day off. Yesterday was also a day that started off well but then my perspective and balance was thrown off keel.
I was feeling melancholy, intolerant, judgmental and generally 'off'.
Typically when I get like that its because I am either doing something that goes against my general spirit or I am NOT doing something that I SHOULD be doing (being irresponsible). Knowing this, I decided to grab my laptop, head to the coffee shop and write on my First Step (again). I figured that applying positive effort would help bring some proper focus and perspective.
It did for a short time.
I believe that I NEED to exercise every day, no matter what. Its what I have been doing consistently during the 'balanced' few weeks and I don't think its coincidental that the one day I take a break is the one day I feel 'off'
Exercise is an excellent remedy for depression and, for me, it has a psychological effect. It symbolizes action in effecting change and self-improvement. I am noticing results and, if I may say so myself, I look pretty damn good for a 40 year old, recently clean IV drug user.
Lesson learned. Every morning, get it the fuck out of the way so that I can feel that I at least accomplished something.
Yesterday, I decided to not do my standard exercise routine and I had the day off. Yesterday was also a day that started off well but then my perspective and balance was thrown off keel.
I was feeling melancholy, intolerant, judgmental and generally 'off'.
Typically when I get like that its because I am either doing something that goes against my general spirit or I am NOT doing something that I SHOULD be doing (being irresponsible). Knowing this, I decided to grab my laptop, head to the coffee shop and write on my First Step (again). I figured that applying positive effort would help bring some proper focus and perspective.
It did for a short time.
I believe that I NEED to exercise every day, no matter what. Its what I have been doing consistently during the 'balanced' few weeks and I don't think its coincidental that the one day I take a break is the one day I feel 'off'
Exercise is an excellent remedy for depression and, for me, it has a psychological effect. It symbolizes action in effecting change and self-improvement. I am noticing results and, if I may say so myself, I look pretty damn good for a 40 year old, recently clean IV drug user.
Lesson learned. Every morning, get it the fuck out of the way so that I can feel that I at least accomplished something.

