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I don't know where to get any... I could try and drive 4 hours back to Denver I suppose, but I will be going up there Wednesday for surgery and a refill of my Dilaudid - my doctor is going to write me 3 months at a time so I don't have to go up there every month which is rad. 360 8mg Dilaudid = 45 grains of Hydromorphone. Also supposed to be picking up a new script for Ativan, 90 1mg tablets.
This is going to be nuts since there is no pharmacy here and I have to get both filled for 3 months since it is 2 hours to the nearest walgreens.
 
high guys...need some love.

i know its long but im a bad situation...try and get through it-if not no biggie
hey fuckers...i'm playing Call of Duty 3 (Jb i'll PM you about y i chose it)...i fucking love it!
I also got Haze bc the guy at gamestop said it was one of the most bc the i asked the manager for some titles that ppl were freaking out over when PS3 and the game were new.

anyway...after all my drama lately,my bad ankle from my accident gave out-which wasn't all that bad...but i landed on my fucked up knee. it is swollen and red and what's in there is bone putty and 3 titanium screws.
every step i take-with my cane feels like that putty and those screws are going to explode like some wicked CG carnage. my parents have been out of town since last sun and won't be back until tomorrow,and my g/f cld only stay the last 2 days&nights.
i have dealt w/ this kinda pain w/OUT opiates for almost 2 years. i endure bc i don't ever wanna detox off opes again. but i can tell something is wrong w/ my knee. im scared. they said i'd never walk again and i did.

Bonnaroo is 3 weeks away. i already lost my singing voice from this car accident i can't lose bonnaroo-not and sit in this house and rot. i am grateful to be alive but if part of my leg has to be replaced or worse. i just want to go dance and sing into the night pretending my voice is still alive... . i know it sounds sensitive-it is. i was a great singer. and bonnaroo is just my thing.-it's my yearly spiritual/music/strangers/friends/DRUGS in amounts that almost push my threshold.
i can't keep loosing passion and talent....bc i just blew a major clean streak off ice-bc y not. wtf is there to life besides pussy,video games,food,water,gear and drugs.

i just am in pain and haven't talked to you guys and i just wanted to post a
tl;dr post just to piss you all off and make your eyes get stuck of the back of your sockets from rolling your eyes.

i think if i can't go to bonnaroo,i am going to some sort of treatment of ROA addiction. i still shooot my ad meds&i talk about it bc i dnt give a fuck. me shooting ice vs properly extracted MPH and shooting it up.
i got to get off this needle..

send me some love and peace and healing my way and post some fucker cocksucker that will get under my skin and ill forget that one of my legs just quit working.
i'm in so much pain...and lonely. these posts are prob a bit dissociative but i'm just telling my online fam wazzup.i go to urgent care or ER when my fam gets home.
if i had insurance or the medicaid i've been waiting on for a
year. shit if i had a car i'd just drive to an orthopedic.

sorry i dumped my shit on you guys.just know i'm still here.
wtf,dude...idk either.


love your guts everybody...................................... skillz :(
 
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Skillz stay up man. If you are determined you will walk again.
You may have lost an instrument in your voice, but there are so many ways to make music - don't give it up.

I know exactly what it feels like to have your doctor tell you that you can never do anything again, and the most rewarding thing in the world is doing it - you just have to set your mind to it and get better against all odds.
I'm sending good vibes your way, brother.
 
skillz~4~thrillz said:
i know its long but im a bad situation...try and get through it-if not no biggie
hey fuckers...i'm playing Call of Duty 3 (Jb i'll PM you about y i chose it)...i fucking love it!
I also got Haze bc the guy at gamestop said it was one of the most bc the i asked the manager for some titles that ppl were freaking out over when PS3 and the game were new.

anyway...after all my drama lately,my bad ankle from my accident gave out-which wasn't all that bad...but i landed on my fucked up knee. it is swollen and red and what's in there is bone putty and 3 titanium screws.
every step i take-with my cane feels like that putty and those screws are going to explode like some wicked CG carnage. my parents have been out of town since last sun and won't be back until tomorrow,and my g/f cld only stay the last 2 days&nights.
i have dealt w/ this kinda pain w/OUT opiates for almost 2 years. i endure bc i don't ever wanna detox off opes again. but i can tell something is wrong w/ my knee. im scared. they said i'd never walk again and i did.

Bonnaroo is 3 weeks away. i already lost my singing voice from this car accident i can't lose bonnaroo-not and sit in this house and rot. i am grateful to be alive but if part of my leg has to be replaced or worse. i just want to go dance and sing into the night pretending my voice is still alive... . i know it sounds sensitive-it is. i was a great singer. and bonnaroo is just my thing.-it's my yearly spiritual/music/strangers/friends/DRUGS in amounts that almost push my threshold.
i can't keep loosing passion and talent....bc i just blew a major clean streak off ice-bc y not. wtf is there to life besides pussy,video games,food,water,gear and drugs.

i just am in pain and haven't talked to you guys and i just wanted to post a
tl;dr post just to piss you all off and make your eyes get stuck of the back of your sockets from rolling your eyes.

i think if i can't go to bonnaroo,i am going to some sort of treatment of ROA addiction. i still shooot my ad meds&i talk about it bc i dnt give a fuck. me shooting ice vs properly extracted MPH and shooting it up.
i got to get off this needle..

send me some love and peace and healing my way and post some fucker cocksucker that will get under my skin and ill forget that one of my legs just quit working.
i'm in so much pain...and lonely. these posts are prob a bit dissociative but i'm just telling my online fam wazzup.i go to urgent care or ER when my fam gets home.
if i had insurance or the medicaid i've been waiting on for a
year. shit if i had a car i'd just drive to an orthopedic.

sorry i dumped my shit on you guys.just know i'm still here.
wtf,dude...idk either.


love your guts everybody...................................... skillz :(
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I'm so sorry to hear that skillz, every time I fuck up my hand/arm again by bumping it into something it's really painful. I know how you feel and I hope everything starts to go smoother for you.
 
Man I love this song so much
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The Postal Service – Such Great Heights (John Tejada Remix)
 
skillz~4~thrillz said:
i know its long but im a bad situation...try and get through it-if not no biggie
hey fuckers...i'm playing Call of Duty 3 (Jb i'll PM you about y i chose it)...i fucking love it!
I also got Haze bc the guy at gamestop said it was one of the most bc the i asked the manager for some titles that ppl were freaking out over when PS3 and the game were new.

anyway...after all my drama lately,my bad ankle from my accident gave out-which wasn't all that bad...but i landed on my fucked up knee. it is swollen and red and what's in there is bone putty and 3 titanium screws.
every step i take-with my cane feels like that putty and those screws are going to explode like some wicked CG carnage. my parents have been out of town since last sun and won't be back until tomorrow,and my g/f cld only stay the last 2 days&nights.
i have dealt w/ this kinda pain w/OUT opiates for almost 2 years. i endure bc i don't ever wanna detox off opes again. but i can tell something is wrong w/ my knee. im scared. they said i'd never walk again and i did.

Bonnaroo is 3 weeks away. i already lost my singing voice from this car accident i can't lose bonnaroo-not and sit in this house and rot. i am grateful to be alive but if part of my leg has to be replaced or worse. i just want to go dance and sing into the night pretending my voice is still alive... . i know it sounds sensitive-it is. i was a great singer. and bonnaroo is just my thing.-it's my yearly spiritual/music/strangers/friends/DRUGS in amounts that almost push my threshold.
i can't keep loosing passion and talent....bc i just blew a major clean streak off ice-bc y not. wtf is there to life besides pussy,video games,food,water,gear and drugs.

i just am in pain and haven't talked to you guys and i just wanted to post a
tl;dr post just to piss you all off and make your eyes get stuck of the back of your sockets from rolling your eyes.

i think if i can't go to bonnaroo,i am going to some sort of treatment of ROA addiction. i still shooot my ad meds&i talk about it bc i dnt give a fuck. me shooting ice vs properly extracted MPH and shooting it up.
i got to get off this needle..

send me some love and peace and healing my way and post some fucker cocksucker that will get under my skin and ill forget that one of my legs just quit working.
i'm in so much pain...and lonely. these posts are prob a bit dissociative but i'm just telling my online fam wazzup.i go to urgent care or ER when my fam gets home.
if i had insurance or the medicaid i've been waiting on for a
year. shit if i had a car i'd just drive to an orthopedic.

sorry i dumped my shit on you guys.just know i'm still here.
wtf,dude...idk either.


love your guts everybody...................................... skillz :(
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<3 Hope you're feeling better, truly. :)
 
muvolution said:
Skillz stay up man. If you are determined you will walk again.
You may have lost an instrument in your voice, but there are so many ways to make music - don't give it up.

I know exactly what it feels like to have your doctor tell you that you can never do anything again, and the most rewarding thing in the world is doing it - you just have to set your mind to it and get better against all odds.
I'm sending good vibes your way, brother.
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thank you for the positive words and love. my parents will be home by 5pm or so- so hopefully i be will near a Dr...RN...or even a very sweet office girl whose dong any thing but her job. i dnt care who it is or what they plan to do-i cld be abducted by green space aliens....(.but like in B&W the way they were in the evolution of the art...)I DON'T CARE WHO IT IS JUST SOMEONE TO PUT ME IN A NICE BED
i also lost my xanax the day after just pulling through my anafranil WDs and back on luvox.

but they said i never live through the night the end you never of this life. i have been close to death it felt like rolling into the fetal position as if i were curling into myself and my energy just went exploding into that by so many well wishers who would not give up on me either. i wasn't giving in,i was just like "let's do it!' i can do anything i put my mind to and fuck these Dr's who were so certain i was already headed off to the morgue.they didn't know me very well- but they when i came out of the almost 4 month medically,induced paralytic coma.. . that was 5 years ago. i was 29. can't believe i'll be 35 soon Sept 11.

so,take this with you as go about your day...DON"T EVER TEXTS WHILE DRIVING. driving is meant for driving... only.

and thanks for lifting my spirits and reminding of memories i had all but forgotten.all the people who cared for me and i feel like my heart is going to explode bc it so full of love and peace.

also...there is something i thought you should know...i am a lesbian ...lol( but a hot one W/ a fucking gorgeous girlfriend)

here is the photo contest i won-the theme was "Erotic/Erotica".

here is the link to that picture...
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=523873

and my profile is real...seriously. lol

thanks again.


with much peace and love...............skillz<3

sorry if this is all fucked up---it is only because i am fucked up too. lol
 
lol, what does you being a lesbian have to do with anything about anything....... :D

Congrats on winning the photo contest by the way.

Try & get some rest if you can, I find than when I can physically rest my body, the mental & emotional stuff will follow suit.
Nothing better than a nice bed........ I've got my electric blanket warming my bed up as I type this =D

keep ya head up :)
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Rough fucking day...
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me too CH. maybe we can catch up later today. my parents house looks like a drug den-a nice one but still w/ rigs and gear and glass bowls,and herb and shit. so i have some very painful cleaning....and that will take a long time. they can turn the furniture out of PS3 mode and into there waste of high def electronics.

i couldn't afford the orange box so i am plowing through CoD3 now. i kinda knew i was gonna pick it for my very first FPS.

anyway...thanks for being such a great friend. love your guts,brah!



peace and love..........skillz<3
 
lostNfound said:
lol, what does you being a lesbian have to do with anything about anything....... :D

Congrats on winning the photo contest by the way.

Try & get some rest if you can, I find than when I can physically rest my body, the mental & emotional stuff will follow suit.
Nothing better than a nice bed........ I've got my electric blanket warming my bed up as I type this =D

keep ya head up :)
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sanks,mayne. i am just picking on muvalution bc he called me man and bro.=D
trust me it happens all the time. i am not offended in anyway,i was just being playful and poking a lil' fun...lol
thanks LnF,for showing the peace and love.


i love every ones of your guts!!!!

peace and love.................skillz<3<3
 
I hope you start getting/feeling better soon skillz---my heart is open if you ever need to talk in private :)

I hate to be a ray of sunshine in this thread but I feel fantastic and am enjoying my sunday afternoon so far. About to go play music with my brother so that should be fun. Maybe this time we can record something of higher standards.
 
arghhhhhh....

ok... *switches to bullshit happy mode*

I'm gonna go make the end-of-the-week rounds w/ the restaurant managers around here...
Wish me luck :\
 
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