I remember when I first started doing a lot of nitrous.. a friend and I started going up "levels" we called them.
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Hey - great start! Nopipesfw mentioned the absolute lack of
any kind of definitive reference for the Nitrous state, and it's true. WHile Nitrous is one of the oldest mind altering molecules known to man (it was around in the 1800's), and yet it probably has the
least information written on it of all psyychedelics or dissociatives - for obvious reasons.
Unfortunately the Nitrous that I ordered online was
not the real thing - I was
so pissed off. The problem is that despite the fact that I have been doing Nitrous and Gascid for 30 years, I still need to get Nitrous if I want to remember the bulk of it.
However, I think that if we continue to communicate on this, we have a real possibility here to do something. Your mention of the 'Levels' is for sure one of the most findamental aspects of the experiencs, and I certainly have a
lot tpo add on that front. A few other things you said sparked memories of my own as well, and I am sure that when I write a response, some of what I say will spark
your memories too. This way, perhaps as more people contribute, we can come up with a 'collective consciousness' refernce - and the
really good thing about this is that this way we only get the common denomenators - we can extract a lot of the ersonal individual responses that are not things that can be descibed as universal effects. I find this really exciting - and will respond to this post shortly.
I have - through using a sort of scientific method of sorts, also found many other things that may or may not be real. These are conclusions (or theories) that I have come to after years of having the same thing happen over and over, and over the years and different scenarios in which I did it, come up with a number of hypotheses on the subject. Much of it is based in science - (gravity, light, other universal forces), but there tends to always be a psychological of metaphysical side to it that while seemingly unrelated, have turned up together too many times for me to dismiss. I find that on Nitrous/Gascid the universe can reveal itself to you in comparatively extremely simple terms, and that these 'explanations' tend to be formulae that explain not only about individual facets, but also other things (like the algorythm covering the emergence and evolution of DNA might be the same algorhythm that explains sight - and how photons morph into rocognizable patterns that enable us to walk around without bumping into things.
One thing that is *HUGE* about the Nitrous experience is Sound. I find Nitrous is to SOund as LSD is to Sight. And I have studied this hugely and find that on Nitrous, as on Ketamine, I got to a point where I could both hear and
control my brain waves. This all linked into my hypnosis experiements on Nitrous, as I was able to use this ability to hear and control my braionwaves to induce very specific levels of trance.
The ste and setting for almost all of my Nitrous/Gascid use has been Yoga (extending into dance (at least using LSD in combination, as it keeps your consciousness above the deep sunconscious Nitrous state.
I've also found Nitrous to be an
amazing psychological drug - and the stuff that comes to mind is not random - there are patterns in the thoughts, about which I have several theories. I have learned
so much about myself through the experiences, and have had the ability to recall many lost childhood memories and incidents.
I have also had the subjective experience of living past lives (although I am wary about making such statements as they are insubstantial, and purely personal. But they have felt very real, and have happened many times. I remember being killed many times, and remembered my death. In these experience, I have very distinct memories of being killed by a sword stuck through my back - coming out of my chest. The locations are always consistent. I
also have recalled, very clearly and many time, both my own birth (I find the Nitrous experience to be a birth/death experience a lot) - and I have recalled
giving birth many time - which if true, would indicate that our eternal soul (if you believe in one) has no gender.
I also recall - on the Soul front - of many times encountering my 'Father'. But this father was not my earthly dad, nor was it me I have concluded. It seems more to be the original spirit that has travelled down with DNA through the many generations fo my ancestry - let's call it the common seed that was in all of us. It has seemed to me that I have developed an actual relationship with this 'being'.
I have also had
many experiences in which I have encountered other separate entities to myself (something like the DMT entities, but somewhat more subtle). One in particular was around a lot - and was, in my own mind, my 'Guru' - and it taught me menay things in life - usually related to being a better person than I was - a sort of Spiritual Guide.
I have encountered other 'beings' - some of which seem to occupy a higher position in the hierarchy of the spirit realm. Every so often, I have been honoured to be in the presence of what I could only describe as 'God' - but not some vague inexplicable Christian version of God - but something that was most definitely conprehensible - and from which I always felt an absolute and eternal and powerful Love.
Then at times on my journeys, at the end of a 'Level'
I have actually
become this 'God' - as in been at the helm - occupied the top position of the hierarchy of eternity. The phrase "Everyone gets a turn to be at the helm' made sense to me - like we are all part of it - and at different times we can get closer to the 'core' of the conscioiusness of the universe. I have come to believe that this kind of meditation allows us to be more than we are at any time - indicatin that there is no linear or temporal journey for the spirit - but rather how close we are to the heart of the universe at any given time - and that Spiritual 'completion' is not a destination, but rather a path that we walk. How broad that p[ath in depends on where we are at the moment.
All of this psycho-spiritual stuff is not something that I can in any way validate - and I will try to avoid mentioning in most of what I write on the subject. But here are times when it will be too closely connected to the experience to completely ignore. Just please don;t take me too seriously when I mention it - it's more in an effort to decribe an experience that to promote a belief. Subjective, at the time, the words that I use to try and describe something manifest themselves in this fashion - the only way to convey
any kind of vaguely accurate concept. I am
not delusional, and while I may accept some of my beliefs as being real, I always accept that I could be wrong. The only way to have any reinforcement in this area is if there are more of us who have had common experiences - and who would use the same words to describe it.
Anyway - thanks -
really for making the effort. If anyone knows how hard the expression of the Nitrous realm is, it's me - as I actively
tried for over 20 years. I still have a lot of my Nitrous/Gascid notes in storage somewhere - and I will do my best to find them, and posst any of the stuff that seems to make sense.
I'll respond to some specifics in my next posts.
Peace,
TMP
beyond explanation, i seriously have no words to describe what happened, apart from to say that i cried because what i saw was soooo beautiful!!
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