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Night Tremors and Demons at my Door

MasterSplinter

MasterSplinter

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So I work for a very large Warehouse processing shipping and returns. Its grueling work...I spend wake up at 5:00am and usually work a 16-20 hour day then wake up at 5am and do it all again.

My body is decaying...I literally feel like Im dreamin all the time. Ive been clean from alcohol weed and good beans cause I know they might even drug test me. I just feel very surreal and beaten....my lack of sleep causes me not to want to eat...when I do its usually in small quantity cause the thought of medium-large size portions make me nauseous.

I only work long hours cause its BOMB pay...

So I get off work early the other night round 8pm...WHOA! Awesome...

Nose was a bit stuffy and a major headache....I took an allergy drug called atarax that I picked up in Mexico (thinking I bought xanax but it still proved useful and its been helpin my allergies.) and I also pop an Ibuprofen for my headache...

So tired...

I basically pop on a fresh copy of Tron to fall asleep to....I knock out for about 3 hours...then wake up very light headed and dizzy...everything is disorienting and foreign...my vision is blurry, and my bed is SOAKED in sweat! I mean like someone pored a whole bucket of it on my bed.

This was freaky because it was freezing when I went to sleep and was still cold. Its around 12 now and I change my clothes etc, pull the layer of sweat frost off my back and hop back into bed.

3 hours later I am freezing cold and cant figure out why...then I notice my bed is soaked again! Ive been sweating like a god damn fat kid or sumthin. I get up to change again and fall down...barely able to pick myself up because my body aches so hard...I feel like Im burning up but the fresh layer of sweat has my back frosted once again so I pull off my drenched shorts and throw on boxers and a wife beater...shaking...

I hope into bed(which feels like Im a rock lying on top of another rock) and try to rest a bit more....I seem to fall asleep okay except for the horrid drymouth every 20 min...and strange demonic voices laughing and calling my name outside my door....the cracks of the door were glowin orange....it was an unpleasant hallucination. I even heard footsteps and saw shadows under the door.

Today I felt like I got hit by a car...had to take work off because I think the fever may have killed braincells.

I also forgot to mention that that night I forgot to take my 1mg Ativan because I was so tired...did I have withdrawl?

Or perhaps did the ibuprofen interact with the atarax allergy medicine....?

Its 1:30 am and Im just barely feelin normal...Ive been like the grim reaper all day....

shit was scary...wtf u think happen?

I got an old script of Seroquel lyin around somewhere and Im not against taken that or maybe even some trazadone cause I know they are good anti-psychoticz...

help me... :(
 
It is possible to have hallucinations from hydroxyzine hcl (its brand name is Atarax).
http://www.drugs.com/sfx/hydroxyzine-side-effects.html


I suspect that you shouldn't take hydroxyzine hcl again and you'll be fine.

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Edit: hydroxyzine is an antihistamine, not a benzodiazepine. Ibuprofen is an NSAID, as I am sure you are already aware.
 
It sounds like you may have experienced a hypnagogic hallucination. Did you feel frozen in fear while you were hearing the voices and seeing things?

I went through a period where I experienced sleep paralysis and these types of hallucinations often and it was the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my life. I can not, to this day, distinguish what I experienced from reality.
 
holy shit.. i used to wake up in sleep paralysis and would be seeing a little kid in the middle of my room and he kept getting closer and i was trying to move so i could get up but of course i couldn't so i tried to yell at the top of my lungs to get someone else in the house to hear me but i couldn't make a sound.. creepy looking little kid like 7 years old (reminds me of the grudge, the movie)
 
Yeah, taking hydroxyzine was murder to me. It was one of the nastiest drugs I've ever had. Gave me lots of prolonged sleep issues even after stopping. Just cause it is a an "alllergy med" doesn't mean it isn't seriously fucking with your neurotransmitters.
 
I have 'persistent allergies' but don't take any meds because they always fuck up my sleep. Stop taking the stuff and you'll probably be good.
 
MasterSplinter said:
I was taking it before and felt just fine...it did WONDERS for my allergies around the cats....

It wasnt until my fatigue from work and insomnia from missing my benzo dose that the problems set in.
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Its quite likely that the hydroxyzine has nothing to do with what happened.

Stress, fatigue, and even the position in which you sleep can influence the occurrence and frequency of sleep paralysis/hypnagogic hallucinations (they occur much more frequently when sleeping on one's back or side than on ones stomach.)
 
Panic attack possibly? Could maybe be wd from ativan but if your not on more then 1 mg of ativan that would seem odd. I would advice to take a long acting benzo before you go to sleep (clonazepam) and that should help you get a good night sleep I would think.
 
not trying to be funny but just out of curiousity why would you take a drug you got from Mexico?

no racism intended but liike really...
 
mgmt&mdma said:
not trying to be funny but just out of curiousity why would you take a drug you got from Mexico?

no racism intended but liike really...
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Its hardly uncommon for Americans to buy Rx drugs in Meixco. Our health insurance program has been raped by the Corporations who control it and drugs are nearly 50-70% cheaper in Mexico.

I was in a well whitewashed area of Los Cabos Mexico which is a beautiful resort town and there were pharmacy everywhere. I went in to buy Xanax but the clerk misunderstood and gave me atarax.

It worked out because it was very useful for my allergies.

FYI Just because something comes from Mexico doesnt mean its sketchy.
 
MasterSplinter said:
Its hardly uncommon for Americans to buy Rx drugs in Meixco. Our health insurance program has been raped by the Corporations who control it and drugs are nearly 50-70% cheaper in Mexico.

I was in a well whitewashed area of Los Cabos Mexico which is a beautiful resort town and there were pharmacy everywhere. I went in to buy Xanax but the clerk misunderstood and gave me atarax.

It worked out because it was very useful for my allergies.

FYI Just because something comes from Mexico doesnt mean its sketchy.
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haha fsho, im not tryna hate on mexico believe me:)
 
I'm still going to say it was probably the atarax. It affects lots of neurotransmission, look up the wiki on it.
 
Well in my opinion...

I agree with it being a hypnagogic hallucination or hypnopampic the difference being waking or sleeping hallucinations I've had both, you hear crazy shit and see crazy shit usually it's pretty scary lol but personally I enjoyed it I'm also a fan of nightmares.
This could have been brought upon due to yes the withdrawal to the benzos, as the withdrawal can on it's own cause hallucinations although off 1mg that's doubtful. This in combination with the drowsiness from the hydroxizine which nost likely had you in a deep sleep as well as it's ability to also cause hallucinations most likely just led to bein in a state of half sleep/half conscious with a lowers threshold for hallucinations.
As far as feeling like you got hit by a truck yes that's the withdrawal.
Oh..
And feeling like your in a dreamworld all the time is most likely the benzo as well.
As far as stopping the hydroxizine nah you don't have to it doesn't really screw with your neurotransmitters... It's a classic antihistamine like Benadryl but with more sedation which can of course lead to difficulty sleeping when u stop taking it like someone mentioned... But taking melatonin the natural hormone for sleep can also cause the same thing doesn't mean it's screwing with your brain....
Cheers!
 
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