Nicotine stained memories

[apollo]

This is a modified version of the first song I composed to play on my guitar.

nicotine stained memories
of a small coastal town
where cigarettes and caffeine
and you
were all it took
for me to forget about monday
and the road out of town

i climbed a mountain today
one i think you'd know
in a small coastal town
where you
left footprints on the track
that another girl is trying to find
but a nod is as good as a wink to the blind

you might just know
a beachside spot at where we once stopped
to glare at the stars
then you
said adamantly that
you knew you'd never be a dreamer
as you looked at the stars with childlike wonder

i know i'll never forget
that warm and windy night
where i said i love you
then you
swore you'd always love me more
so we made a silly bet
can i cash in on that one yet?

it's far from peculiar
but still suprising
that honesty paid off
now you
know me for the bastard
that i have always been
and will always hate

so you don't care anymore
and you told me never to call
not to message and never to visit
but you
didn't seem to notice
or maybe you didn't care
that i wasn't calling at all

a friend once told me
he lives with no regrets
nothing he wants undone
and you
are my sole regret
because no matter what i do
i will always love you

 

[neverwas]

i know i'll never forget
that warm and windy night
where i said i love you
then you
swore you'd always love me more
so we made a silly bet
can i cash in on that one yet?

and you
are my sole regret
because no matter what i do
i will always love you

 

[E-girl]

wow. a couple comments.

first of all,

you might just know
a beachside spot at where we once stopped
to glare at the stars
then you
said adamantly that
you knew you'd never be a dreamer
as you looked at the stars with childlike wonder

i know i'll never forget
that warm and windy night
where i said i love you
then you
swore you'd always love me more
so we made a silly bet
can i cash in on that one yet?

awesome awesome awesome. i loved these lines so much. great wording, imagery, everything. i just loved the flow.

as for now realizing this involves not just you, but a long-standing member of this forum, and someone i have a lot of respect for her talent and insight, now realizing that this is about up all night, it became a whole new ballgame in my mind. We read words like this, people's life stories, and become engrossed in them. but they arent real, in the sense that we might never know if they are fact or fiction, or to whom they are referring. Maybe when i read this, i pictured a totally different girl, but now identity has been placed, and this took on a whole new meaning to me.

I read it and i think .... "could this be the guy in Cafe and Coffee Talk? the one sitting across the table from her saying the things she didnt want to hear, mentally cursing him.... ?" i think things like that, and i look at you and think "if it is, i know just how he takes his coffee. " lol.

This forum is so much at the heart of all of us. His story is yours, and your story is mine, and it just keeps going and going....

Apollo, regardless of whether or not the comment she made was appropriate or not for this forum, can i just say one thing? From experience, i know someone only can reply like that if they've been deeply scarred. Maybe she's just trying to keep you from making the same mistake with the *right* person that comes along.

Anyways... fabulous piece. 5 stars.

 

[E-girl]

i just read this again and realized this is probably not about you in the way i thought it was. sorry for going off on such a tangent without really understanding the story!!

 

[E-girl]

apollo: You can not write in this forum and not expect me to read it. And you can not write about me, about us, about you in this forum and expect me not to respond.

Exactly. I agree.

Pity our best pieces come out of pain, hey.

Yes, agreed here also.

moderators: If you feel either of my comments are un-necessary than please feel free to edit them.

I really dont see anything that needs editing. You might have been a little harsh, but you've justified it to him. I dont consider this a flamewar. I consider it raw, uninhibited emotion at its best.

And i think the replies are very much a part of the story.

Unless i hear otherwise from apollo, i'll leave it as is.

 

[Mean Girl]

I'm the inadequate replacement - 'the boy now walking paths previously designed for your heavy feet'.

In the time I've met you and known you, I could never consider you the "inadequate" person you think you are, differences are simply that, and if your behaviours don't suit another person, don't think that they are inappropriate per se.

And just for posterity, Tom DeLonge has a terrible voice too, but Blink 182 are perfect proof that you don't need amazing talent to make it big and be loved by millions

You are a wise and lovely person Apollo, try not to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, when it's only designed to carry the weight of your heart.

 

[Backo]

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[apollo]

This thread looks so suspect with all the quotes, etc.

I don't know how you can manage to say something positive about me Mean Girl, but thank you regardless

And thank you E-girl.

 

[haste]

^^ yeah especially to someone who missed it all, like me

whatever, you both rock in my book