Woke up this morning and I had myself some coffee and meth. I met up with my mom; whom I hadn't seen in awhile and we headed down to the beach to have lunch. I wasn't feeling hungry(meth does that), but I forced myself to eat two tacos and a shishkebob. The entire time I was with mom I was non-stop chatting, but a normal paced, not high on meth chatty; I kept it cool.haha! I told her the reason I was so talkative was because I missed my mother and was excited to be spending to the day with her to catch up on how we've been doing in the world(which is all true, I did miss talking to my mom). She smiled, hugged me and said I missed you too son.
We went back to her house and spent the rest of the day looking through old family pictures and talking, I even talked to her husband a little(and I thought he didn't like me,I think he's alright with me now). The crystal really helped me get things out that I wanted to talk to my mom about. I'd explain it like; all my thoughts were easier to form into sentences then into projections from my voice-box . Normally I stutter and trip on my words a little. I also had the most exciting, happy, comforting feeling all day; when I'm on crystal I pick up on people's energy/mood a little better and I feel people get my positive or negative vibes quicker. I could tell my mom was just as happy as I was to hangout. I stayed over and had dinner till night I drove home.
Now present time I am writing in. I stick on my fentanyl patch and let it override the meth so I can sleep and dream. I feel it, no euphoria, but an unfathomable contentness. I smoked a few bongloads and it seems to have quickened the fentanyl's effects. I am very satisfied on how today turned out. I feel like today's extremely positive energy will give me the motivation I need to complete the days ahead.
Cheers to the positive aspects of drugs! And here's to; hopefully we'll all face the consequences good or bad of using drugs in the most positive way we can. Like when I experience withdrawals or comedowns I say to myself," Well ol' boy *sigh* you knew what you were in for, now the only way out is to stay clean pure and simple; unless you intended to make things worse, in which case you'll have to learn the hard way. Goodluck to you bud, and we'll celebrate in two weeks with some nice drugs." And after this patch wears off in two days I'll most likely have a very unpleasant sobering up, but doing more opiates is not a good choice in my experience; tried that and after a few more days I couldn't get anymore drugs and the withdrawal was increased in unpleasantness 2x8(. After the patch wears off is when the positive vibes of today come in handy, I'm going to run on today's motivation to ease sobering up and get through the week clean and serene.
Half an hour later, which is now. Current thoughts "This post lasted longer than I thought. It lasted longer because I am still feeling the meth I suppose. This fentanyl patch has me fucked up. A few more bongloads, glass of water and then will I be prepared for a sleeping session."
A nice day indeed.%) Goodnight bluelighters
We went back to her house and spent the rest of the day looking through old family pictures and talking, I even talked to her husband a little(and I thought he didn't like me,I think he's alright with me now). The crystal really helped me get things out that I wanted to talk to my mom about. I'd explain it like; all my thoughts were easier to form into sentences then into projections from my voice-box . Normally I stutter and trip on my words a little. I also had the most exciting, happy, comforting feeling all day; when I'm on crystal I pick up on people's energy/mood a little better and I feel people get my positive or negative vibes quicker. I could tell my mom was just as happy as I was to hangout. I stayed over and had dinner till night I drove home.Now present time I am writing in. I stick on my fentanyl patch and let it override the meth so I can sleep and dream. I feel it, no euphoria, but an unfathomable contentness. I smoked a few bongloads and it seems to have quickened the fentanyl's effects. I am very satisfied on how today turned out. I feel like today's extremely positive energy will give me the motivation I need to complete the days ahead.
Cheers to the positive aspects of drugs! And here's to; hopefully we'll all face the consequences good or bad of using drugs in the most positive way we can. Like when I experience withdrawals or comedowns I say to myself," Well ol' boy *sigh* you knew what you were in for, now the only way out is to stay clean pure and simple; unless you intended to make things worse, in which case you'll have to learn the hard way. Goodluck to you bud, and we'll celebrate in two weeks with some nice drugs." And after this patch wears off in two days I'll most likely have a very unpleasant sobering up, but doing more opiates is not a good choice in my experience; tried that and after a few more days I couldn't get anymore drugs and the withdrawal was increased in unpleasantness 2x8(. After the patch wears off is when the positive vibes of today come in handy, I'm going to run on today's motivation to ease sobering up and get through the week clean and serene.
Half an hour later, which is now. Current thoughts "This post lasted longer than I thought. It lasted longer because I am still feeling the meth I suppose. This fentanyl patch has me fucked up. A few more bongloads, glass of water and then will I be prepared for a sleeping session."
A nice day indeed.%) Goodnight bluelighters
