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jenny999

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So excited to have this amazing forum with so much info. Where you can talk about every drug without being judged and hear others similar experiences.

I'm perscribed Adderall even though I don't have ADHD. Started it 2 years ago as an appetite suppressant, then fell in love with the happy/upbeat/super focused/life is great feeling.

As any amphetamine user knows, 2 years later my life & mind are a mess. Isolated myself from friends/family, lost interest in trying to have any sort of romantic relationship.......But I can't start my day without this stuff.

When I do take an Adderall "break" it's only on the weekends where I literally can't function & sleep all day and eat bad food. I also overdo my Xanax use on these weekends so I'm feeling "okay" with the sheer boredom my weekends have become.

I also never knew how dependent and how much I liked Vicodin. I was prescribed that for 6 months for having a boob job and would take at nights feeling very happy. Then doc said he couldn't do it anymore because of the high addiction rate. Now without it at night I take more Xanax but it's just not the same feeling.....oh how I miss those lol

Definitely need to stop the Adderall soon because of the negatives (isolation, impulsiveness, over spending, perception being way off which causes me to blow up at so many people for situations that I'm looking at in such a warped way)
 
Jenny 999, welcome to the Blue light forum. When I was in my early 20's, I has an unlimited supply of desoxyn. (Similar med.) Same deal, total bliss at the beginning - hell after 5 years. Once the supply ended I was left with X amount. I used those to ween myself off with incremental decrease in dose. I had periods when I went without and the misery of amphetamine withdrawal (which at the time I though that didn't occur) gave me the strength to stick to my taper plan. It wasn't as bad as cold turkey but a can't really say that it was a walk in the park either. But it is most certainly doable. Maybe another B. Lighter will come along with a better suggestion but that's what I have. Just know a lot of know what you're going through and we're here for ya in anyway we can. I'm glad you decided to post and keep us informed in how you're doing.

D.T.B.T.
 
donetherebeenthat said:
Jenny 999, welcome to the Blue light forum. When I was in my early 20's, I has an unlimited supply of desoxyn. (Similar med.) Same deal, total bliss at the beginning - hell after 5 years. Once the supply ended I was left with X amount. I used those to ween myself off with incremental decrease in dose. I had periods when I went without and the misery of amphetamine withdrawal (which at the time I though that didn't occur) gave me the strength to stick to my taper plan. It wasn't as bad as cold turkey but a can't really say that it was a walk in the park either. But it is most certainly doable. Maybe another B. Lighter will come along with a better suggestion but that's what I have. Just know a lot of know what you're going through and we're here for ya in anyway we can. I'm glad you decided to post and keep us informed in how you're doing.

D.T.B.T.
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Thanks so much! I've gone a whole week (i know wow) without it. The severe tiredness was crazy. At work I couldn't even fake being happy or smile. When I would get home I would just go straight to sleep. Normally after work I go workout, but had no interest when off.

I'm sure if I continued those symptoms would've gotten better but that was the worst week of my life & think I need to wait until I have some vacation time to take a few wks off from work to do it.
 
Hey Jenny welcome to bl. I definitely understand the attachment to Adderall you feel. I'm 27 years old and I've been addicted to methamphetamine since I was a teen but i recently quit and it's been surprisingly easy. Th trick to quitting amphetamines is to fill up your time with better activities which in turn will make you feel better which ultimately gives you motivation like you used to have.

It used to be I couldn't do anything productive without doing some crystal beforehand, now I just do things and it feels good to get them done. The longer you go without it, he easier it gets until you barely think about it anymore.

It's also very important to keep yourself out of situations where drugs will be. Would I hit a meth pipe if it were right in front of me now? I really don't know, the point is I'm not human let myself find out.
 
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