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I was lead here by a google search. I got off long term pain meds for chronic back pain...and was off of them for over a year. I had emergency surgery last month and because I was never flagged (for lack of a better word) as an addict, I was given a script for pain meds when I was disdischarged from the hospital. I did need them for maybe a week after surgery and I knew I should have thrown them out after the first week. Now, I feel like shit again.. I have one and a half pills left and I'm dreading the withdrawal. So... here I am. I know it's not going to be as bad as when I got off of them before. I cold turkey and was sick sick for a good month and didn't feel normal for 3 months after I was able to go back to work. I had used all vacation time and personal time for that month of sickness. The first week, I was so sick... you know and I don't have to describe the disgusting mess... it wasn't attractive at all. Then I was just kind of tired and freezing cold as the withdrawal subsided. It's worth mentioning that after I was able to get off the pain medication, my back didn't really hurt at all anymore. The pain I was feeling every morning was withdrawal... so I would pop a few pills to be able to "move" and my back was all better until that dose started wearing off... anyway, I'm scared now. I guess I'm looking for a way to make this easier than it was the last time. I cannot believe that I did this to myself again. I really don't want this... after I got off of them, if you would have put a pile of pills near me, I would have flushed them in the toilet. Now I'm guarding a pill and a half like they were gold and terrified of going through all that again. Pleased to meet you... I'm just looking for some hope now. That's all. As for my user ID? I couldn't think of anything and my pack of cigarettes was sitting here next to me lol
 
Greetings! Welcome to Bluelight!

I know what you are going through. It's a rough time.. If you are looking for some help, The Dark Side is a good place to talk with others who are trying to quit, going through withdrawals, and other problems related to drugs.

It's a hard time, but it does eventually get better, keep that in mind and try to stay positive, it really has been helping me. :)

~Verri
 
Welcome FLT, hope you're WD's will subside much quicker this time. After a few days of doing Hydro's, I make sure and keep a couple to help my WD and take just a half of one each night for 3 or 4 nights and that REALLY helps. Also, drink lots of Gatorade to get your electrolytes back up to par and you should be feeling better soon. Good Luck Bro!!! R~
 
Thank you downerdoer... as of this posting last night, I had one and a half left. I took the whole one this morning... saving the half for after dinner. Hoping that tomorrow morning isn't as bad as I'm afraid of. "Mind over matter" helped me cold turkey the withdrawal when I stopped (referring to my successful withdrawal from these evil things after years of been a pain management "customer")... I don't know why I'm so afraid this time. I think I'm afraid that if I fail... I'll go looking for just a few to get me through the discomfort because honestly, logic tells me that I'm not as bad as I was before.. I'm afraid I'll trick myself and get into the old bad habits and reasoning. I'm glad I'm here because I'm able to say it and admit to my abilities of bullshitting myself. Thanks for the welcome and advice. I need it <3 (ps... I'm female) :)
 
Hello... thanks both of you. :) I went and got Imodium and I have prescribed xanax. Fingers crossed. Thanks for the welcomes!
 
I'm not sure what kratom is... I've seen it mentioned... I don't think I'm willing to get hooked on anything else... but I'll research it better. Thanks again!
 
Thanks for the info and thanks forthe eencouragement... I'm starting to feel yucky already. I'm going to take the xanax soon.
 
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