TDS New to this site and need some advice

[hydropunk]

I am currently done abusing hydro and would like to taper. Unfortunately, I have convinced a second doctor to get me tramadol in order to get through the time when my hydro script runs out. I have been using 120 7.5mg hydro per month and 100 mg tram daily as I am now hooked on that. I am also prescribed 0.5mg klonopin 3 times a day for 4 years to deal with a life long anxiety disorder. This was early 2012 as I was hospitalized for attempted suicide from untreated chronic pain. Later in 2012 (sept) I was given my first vicodins and used 2 7.5mg pills per day and never abused them, as the pain got better I started to use 4-6 per day and as you all know I was hooked. I have always used all 120 pills of hydro as well as the ultram I get from second doc, but haven't abused in 3 weeks... I want off and want my life back. Well let's just say the depression is returning as I am now taking 3 pills of hydro, and 75mg ultram per day as well as my prescribed klonopin. Can I go up and stabilize and slowly taper to feel better, or am I doomed to go back to the psych ward? Please help me, I am a teacher with a wife and a one year old son. I have no desire to abuse anymore, and I am just looking for help. Thanks so much

 

[Moreaux]

Hi hudropunk- are you wanting to just get off opiates or are you wanting to quit the Klonopin as well?

 

[hydropunk]

Hi hudropunk- are you wanting to just get off opiates or are you wanting to quit the Klonopin as well?

Hey Benzo girl thanks for the response. For now, I want to get off the opiates since I no longer need them. I have done the ssri route many times and found that they don't help very much for anxiety and just make me feel more numb, that's when the docs did the k script and never abused it, only used it as prescribed. I don't have issues with the klonopin for now, although in a perfect world, I would love to be drug free. I lived with my anxiety for 31 years on and off ssri' prior to my chronic pain that led to the hospitalization. (I am now 35). I will go slow and I am fine with a long taper as my wife has my meds so I can't cheat. I just felt so normal before I stopped my abusing and now I feel back to this hyper anxious depressed my life has no color feeling. Needing support or advice on stabilizing, then slow taper or taper from here and hope it gets better? I fear the latter since I feel off now how would I be better unless I return to a dosage that stabilizes symptoms first.

 

[Ruby Slippers]

If l was you l wouldn't do a long drawn out taper. You are prescribed 30mg a day? Cut it in half for a week and then just stop. You have the clonazapam which will help a lot. I know it's hard but it sounds like you are in a good place mentally and are ready to quit. Whenever you are feeling down take a brisk walk and remember to eat as healthy as possible, basically the two things that will help you recover. Good luck!

 

[Jabberwocky]

I was in the same boat. I need clonzepam because antidepressants exaggerate my anexity but like you I was hurt and started with opiates. I cut my dose(oxy) to 1/2 for a week then ran out. I didn't want that cycle anymore so I'm now over a week no opiates. It's not going to be easy but I'd suggest now would be a great time to just stop. I had to take a few extra kpins during the first few days for a little comfort but like you I e never abused them so I'm back to my regular nightly dose
I wish there was a way I could fast forward 7 days for ya. It will suck but please just hang in there. I know it's easier said then done but trust me I feel so good right now it's amazing me I'm feeling healthier and stronger every day and I'm not a slave to a pill anymore.
Do a fast taper and add extra benzos for the first couple days and that will help a lot with the anexity/panic and sleep. Next thing you know you'll look at the clock and it's another day and then another and you'll slowly start feeling like yourself again. And dude it feels awesome
Within a week you can be out of that horrible cycle and back to you
I wish you the best and I know it's hard but the end game is so worth it
Best of luck and keep me posted. Pm me if you have any questions or just want to rant. You want this so you can do it. We're all cheering for ya

 

[Erikmen]

You have made your way through this!
It seems that the willingness to do it made all the difference on the outcome.
Congratulations! Remarkably done!
Keep up and keep moving forward. That's how some of us get inspired.
Erik

 

[Jabberwocky]

How are things holding up hydro punk?

 

[Erikmen]

If l was you l wouldn't do a long drawn out taper. You are prescribed 30mg a day? Cut it in half for a week and then just stop. You have the clonazapam which will help a lot. I know it's hard but it sounds like you are in a good place mentally and are ready to quit. Whenever you are feeling down take a brisk walk and remember to eat as healthy as possible, basically the two things that will help you recover. Good luck!

Yep, I agree.