Hi I've been a BL reader for a long time but finally decided to be brave and make a post. I've a long history of drug abuse and unfortunately it's earned me a criminal record too. I was clean for a long time but with deteriorating physical health came a need for pain relief and opened the door to abuse again. I've been getting my medication from legitimate sources etc but I'm not in a good place mentally and have been relying on taking more of my meds than I truly require for pain control. Over the years I've used practically every ROA and many, many drugs (too many to remember actually). I guess I've historically been a risk taker, which I'm not proud of.
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Hey Lounks, welcome to Bluelight
Sorry to hear about your struggles!
Have you had a look at the Recovery Support Forums? Especially The Dark Side you might find helpful or interesting, and also Sober Living if you're trying to quit properly.
Many of us here are in a similar situation, and I'm sure can sympathise. I hope you find the help or support you're looking for here
Yes, Lounks, a big welcome from everyone on Bluelight. If you need help, just reach out in one of those forums. If you just want to talk to someone, you can do that as well. This is no judgement here, many of us either are going through similar situations or have already been there.Hi CFC and thanks for the welcome. I guess I should have added that I guess I'm not quite ready for recovery yet, but I'm getting closer. I'm just starting a DBT programme and I'm hoping it helps to address the many psychological issues that have led me to where I am today. Once I have some coping skills under my belt then I think that's the time to try standing on my own 2 feet. Luckily, my addiction is not a physiological one (as evidenced by the fact I can go days without abusing my meds without suffering withdrawal symptoms etc), so I won't have to deal with that.
