New to BlueLight so came here to introduce myself -

[honeypie3x3]

Hi there,

I have posted my profile info here too, just so you know some about me.
I live in the Southern United States. I am 45 yr old woman, people tell me I look much younger than my age.
I sort of come off as a hippie chick I think.

My interests...
My Dogs (rescue dogs),
Nature,
Conservation,
Metaphysics

My occupation: I work as an HIV/Safer Sex Educator and Counselor

I am a happily married to a hard working man. He was heavily addicted to meth amphetamine in the 80s and 90s prior to our getting together. Now coca-cola (literally...12 pack a day) is as speedy as he gets. And a little ganja helps him sleep at night.

Me- I take legal prescription meds for severe chronic pain issues.
I have a very high tolerance to my pain meds. I am on 60 mg of vicodin a day. It does not intoxicate me...at all.
And it does not control my pain. Sure it takes the edge off. I have asked my doctors for something time release (mornings are excruciating). Or just a different combination of meds ...anything. But it seems their hands are tied with the recent changes in the laws around controlled substances. I have had nerve blocks and all manner of things to reduce the . It feels like a hard core leg cramp, except it is a nonstop pain in my back/hips/legs..its enough to drive me crazy...and I worry I will be on disability as the pain effects my ability to do certain parts of my job.

So I have supplemented my rxs with other opiates when I can. It is extremely important to me that I keep my household monetary budget balanced, that I perform well on the job, that I care for my health, nurture my relationship with my husband, family, friends and my coworkers. All of these things are important to me. So with the opiates, well... hey I am NOT in denial...I have a big assed monkey on my back. I pay my bills on time but have nothing for savings. I just try to get by day by day. I try to be as honest with myself as I can. And I proceed as cautiously and as mindfully as I can. What is impressive to me about Bluelight is the emphasis on safety and wellness. And I appreciate the NON-judgemental attitude. I know there is no totally safe and sensible way to manage drugs that are not my own rxs. I am here to learn and to share what I have learned. I have been very lucky...never been busted. My husband and I do not have children. And we do give ourselves credit for not bringing a child into our little world of struggles with pain/addiction and lower income.

I am what some people would call a "high functioning addict". But I am more than just an addict. I am also a good person....and I have a feeling that most of the people on this site are good people too.


Peace out....Honeypie "HP"

 

[stardust.hero]

Hey Honeypie! Welcome ! I see you have dogs listed as your first interest. Dogs are my #1 interest as well . I foster dogs and have failed a few times so I have 3 permanent dogs as well. Bluelight has a lot of pet threads so if you want to show off your little guys I can name a few of the threads in different sections that you can do that.

The Dark Side Pet Thread
Second Opinion Pet Thread
The Lounge Pet Thread

You should also come check out the NMI Social Thread for some light hearted conversation.

 

[muvolution]

Welcome to Bluelight. We have alot of resources for chronic pain patients here.

Check out the Other Drug Chronic Pain Megathread, and if you would like to contribute your expertise in Safer Sex Education and Counseling, try Sex, Love and Relationships. Let us know if you need anything at all.

I have posted extensively in the OD and TDS megathread, I would recommend reading those threads from the beginning to see what other people go through and I bet you will find some great advice relating to increasing or changing your pain medication (hint - there is a better way). Check out my posts.

 

[honeypie3x3]

Hi stardust...oh i could go on and on about my babies.
I live in a new house that was built in a very bad neighborhood....7 of these houses were built in an attempt to bring in a few nice families. Well that was 2007, and to date my husband and i are the only folks who had the cajones to move in over here.
we really lucked out, got a lot of grant money etc. got a 3 bedroom 2 bath house for $80,000 g...anyway,,,,,
when we first viewed the house there was a big pregnant rottweiler who was on the porch. she was pretty laid back and skiddish. we didn't worry about her ... we had a feeling she might "come with the house". She had her pups under an abandoned shack across the street from us. many of the pups diseappeared early on. but one pup stayed with her awhile, but was then hit by a car.
she starting hanging out on our porch again. our next door neighbor told us her story. she was 5 and had had 2 litters a year for every year she was alive. she had never been to a vet. the folks around here kept her fat feeding her barbque, fried chicken...people threw all fast food leftovers out either in the yard of that little shack, or in our yard. drove us nuts. kept girldog very fat. Long story how we ended up adopting her. folks in the neighborhood either loved her or hated her. we learned that the folks who hated girldog were almost always, no ALWAYS "bad" folks. violent criminals, gang members. winter 08 she stayed on our porch and she was ill. I was unemployed for a time, and that coincided with her illness. we had no money to take her to vet. we were afraid to bring her indoors because our dog Lemont had always been a lone dog, and didn't get along with other animals.
So I would take these gel ice/hot packs, put in microwave and heat up as hot as I could them wrap them in flannel and i would just stay up all night for months just checking on her. then got us on a waiting list for free spay. it was april 09before we could get her to a vet. we found out she had heartworms, the treatment was over $800. she also had breast cancer. the vet at the free spay neuter place did give her all shots and remove her tumor. we found a vet out in the county willing to treat the heartworms for 1/2 price...we got on facebook and collected about $500 in 2 days. it blew my mind. we treated her for the heartworms. she almost didn't make it. but she did. she ended up moving in, neighbors stop by sometimes to see her. she wandered the streets for so long, she has many "friends" in the neighborhood. She got along with Lemont very well. Was devasted when he passed away last christmas. we got another rescue dog named Polly ... who looks very much like she could be one of girldogs pups. polly is nutty as a fruitcake and so much fun. I will save her story for another day. But bottom line....we love our girls! they bring us so much joy!

honeypie