Hello everyone I'm new to bl but have been reading forums for a while but I have a few questions like how do I update my profile info and second is there a limit on how many posts I can make as a greenlighter thank you all and I hope I can find some wonderful people out there that are going through similar things thank you
To update your profile just click on your name either to the left of your posts or the very top of your screen and click your name. Click on the 'my profile' if you're attacking from the left.
There isn't a limit what greenlighters may post, just an inbox limit. That goes with 50 posts anyway.
Any questions or queries about the site feel free to send me a PM.
First off thank you for being so welcoming and helpful and sure I'll tell ya what I'm going through well for the last 6 or 7 years been taking rx painkillers last two or three have been full blown addiction 150 to 200 mg a day I started off taking on the weekends saying oh I'll never get hooked haha shows how dumb I was lol but now it has ruined my life quit my job so I could focus on quitting but that wasn't too successful I still used and have tried suboxone before but not really I would take it to hold me over till I could get more I wabte to quit but didn't know how to be sober but now I'm trying the subs again it's a little better this time but I'm still slipping pretty bad like once a week or so I'll take a (break) and use I can't seem to shake it thatone time use seems to help me mentally but I know it's hurting me I just wish I could not take anything and feel normal and good again but I've made it through detox but thatwas easy compared to what I felt next I guess it was what they call paws it was awful I felt extremely lethargic like I wasn't really there like I was watching a crappie movie of my self extremely depressed and of course cravings that were borderline obsessing is that normal after opiate addiction? Thank you
Oh ya I forgot to abound the anxiety that's probably the worst part of it all I always thought panic attacks were made up by weak people but now I know they are very real and terrifying after opiates it feels like I've lost control of my mind and that is terrifying to me I feel like I can't be normal without being on oxy even when I take the sub and feel fine I still feel like something is missing and if I took a pill that I could make everything better that's why I loved to use in the first place I thought it made everything easier and better like I could work insanely hard or talk to women very easily but after time I was useless at work and didn't even think about women just wanted to be a recluse and get high it's a sad way to live and I disgust. Myself when I look in a mirror
Damn why you feeling down? Its probably the PAWS, while I haven't gone through PAWS there is a supportive community in our Recovery Support section, try making a thread if you want to get something personal off your chest and want some advice from other people. You shouldn't feel so down about yourself. I'm sure that you're a terrific person with a lot to contribute to your family and friends. Just gotta keep your chin up alright?
Feel free to give me a PM if you need to talk to someone because you should be thinking more positively about yourself. Just think of all the good things you can do.
Opiate addiction can be massively damaging to one's mental and physical health. The first thing you need to do is either get clean, or get on a regular dose of bupe/methadone. You can't take different doses every day and expect to be stable.
Thank you guys I really appreciate the support now I know why people praise this site so much there seems to be Alot of amazing people on here dealing with the same things thank you again
