KurtAurelius
Bluelighter
Hey all,
I’ve lurked blue light for a while, and found it more interesting and insightful than reddit, and although Erowid is a gem, it doesn’t offer the same fascinating experience of a forum like this.
After the UK has done its Censorship and I saw on reddit you can’t even access drug discussion subreddits, I’ve made a account to finally participatez
I spend a lot of time on here and with the range of topics I’d love to interact, not only Pharmacology and General Harm reduction, but with the Philosophy, Spirituality and Love/Sex sections with my own personal fascinations in the pursuit of experience.
I would say I still use drugs.
But I only take my medication as prescribed, (77mg Methylphenidate a day) use nicotine and the odd lucky find of Pharm Opioids.
I’ve done my fair share of your usual drugs and have had numerous addictions in my youth.. (though I’m told to say that at 23 is silly but I started at 13..)
Benzos, Opioids, Alcohol, Ketamine being the most serious but now no longer obliterating myself as my only solution to our experience in life.
Again I would likely use the odd bit of lucky find codeine, or if lucky enough some clean MDMA (but again the criteria being to strict for me to obtain without concerns)
But no longer wishing to fuck about with the state of street drugs these days.. or the damage I caused with Gabaergeics (my personal evil I thankfully still will not ever go near) or the closeness to destroying my body with Ketamine or Alcohol.
Hard to say then where I am, in the sense of the whole “recovery” thing or being “active” as my point of place is not in the strict black and white.
I was totally clean for 3 years before dabbling in cannabis and microdosing psychedelics, reaching a dark point with my practice of meditation, learning and philosophy to then come almost full circle to, DPDR, HPPD and then chipping Opiates and testing the limit of them without getting physically dependent and then stopping.
Seeing how far I can bend my new way the life I built, but I’ve learnt since it was its own fallacy anyway.
I wanted one last taste of bottom one last time before my new experience with medicating my ADHD.
Being medicated for ADHD has opened up a new world for me, and brought me to a much better sense of peace but I’ve dribbled enough already,
I have a fascination with the specific culture on here, a place to delve into “taboo” or whatever best articulates the realm these substances and experiences lead us to as I am always drawn here and to people with a full palette of colour.
I love talking to people, gaining perspective and trying to open my empathy and understandings, I’m Autistic as fuck, but always open to anyone for a deep chat, as a open conversation is always a enticing experience.
My last ramble is I love music, I listen and write my own, I love Hypertrophy training, Philosophy, and of course Pharmacology and drug culture, anyone who wants a chat is welcome, thanks.
I’ve lurked blue light for a while, and found it more interesting and insightful than reddit, and although Erowid is a gem, it doesn’t offer the same fascinating experience of a forum like this.
After the UK has done its Censorship and I saw on reddit you can’t even access drug discussion subreddits, I’ve made a account to finally participatez
I spend a lot of time on here and with the range of topics I’d love to interact, not only Pharmacology and General Harm reduction, but with the Philosophy, Spirituality and Love/Sex sections with my own personal fascinations in the pursuit of experience.
I would say I still use drugs.
But I only take my medication as prescribed, (77mg Methylphenidate a day) use nicotine and the odd lucky find of Pharm Opioids.
I’ve done my fair share of your usual drugs and have had numerous addictions in my youth.. (though I’m told to say that at 23 is silly but I started at 13..)
Benzos, Opioids, Alcohol, Ketamine being the most serious but now no longer obliterating myself as my only solution to our experience in life.
Again I would likely use the odd bit of lucky find codeine, or if lucky enough some clean MDMA (but again the criteria being to strict for me to obtain without concerns)
But no longer wishing to fuck about with the state of street drugs these days.. or the damage I caused with Gabaergeics (my personal evil I thankfully still will not ever go near) or the closeness to destroying my body with Ketamine or Alcohol.
Hard to say then where I am, in the sense of the whole “recovery” thing or being “active” as my point of place is not in the strict black and white.
I was totally clean for 3 years before dabbling in cannabis and microdosing psychedelics, reaching a dark point with my practice of meditation, learning and philosophy to then come almost full circle to, DPDR, HPPD and then chipping Opiates and testing the limit of them without getting physically dependent and then stopping.
Seeing how far I can bend my new way the life I built, but I’ve learnt since it was its own fallacy anyway.
I wanted one last taste of bottom one last time before my new experience with medicating my ADHD.
Being medicated for ADHD has opened up a new world for me, and brought me to a much better sense of peace but I’ve dribbled enough already,
I have a fascination with the specific culture on here, a place to delve into “taboo” or whatever best articulates the realm these substances and experiences lead us to as I am always drawn here and to people with a full palette of colour.
I love talking to people, gaining perspective and trying to open my empathy and understandings, I’m Autistic as fuck, but always open to anyone for a deep chat, as a open conversation is always a enticing experience.
My last ramble is I love music, I listen and write my own, I love Hypertrophy training, Philosophy, and of course Pharmacology and drug culture, anyone who wants a chat is welcome, thanks.
