New member, opiate WD anticipation starting to suck

[blueaddict43]

After first attempt at being clean from 10 years of abuse, my 123 days was extinguished. Now, going on 94 days of primarily oxycodone use, I am broke/jobless/shamed/guilty/depressed/done. It's day 2 early morning (4:30am) with no sleep. My first day symptoms were fought by use of one 10mg methadone pill... stupidly later followed by some methamphetamine from a "friend", then it wore off so taking the second 10mg methadone made things bearable. I have only one pill of 10mg methadone left. More is a possibility but not certain... My use was scattered but we'll say 120mg of oxycodone a day. (Not close to how bad it was before at 700-800mg a day).. I tried a month ago but was in agonizing pain for 2 days and on day 3 couldn't take it anymore. I don't feel horrible at the moment. Should I continue the search for more methadone or are the home remedies Posted here efficient? Will I be delaying the inevitable by taking small amounts of Methadone for a few days? Will the symptoms of pure pain/anxiety/akwardness return as soon as the methadone is done? or will a couple days of methadone prove useful? Perhaps benzos instead of dones? Subs? .....sorry, very scatter-brained. trying to get a grip and cope.. RLS is a concern later; potassium, water? Depressed mood later bringing on pain and discomfort; fight with a bike ride? Anxiety also a big one; no readily available benzos. Going to the ER is a thought but not desired ... Although I have read countless threads on this site and a big fan, I am ignorant of the rules still (but will read them), I just want help getting through this....maybe just to know I'm not alone also iunno. OTC, home remedies, some not OTC advice would be welcomed and thankful for...

 

[pete1891]

Hello, I am also trying to quit, suboxone is working for me. I have gotten down to 1 mg. Every 3 or 4 days, but I crave heroin like you wouldnt beleive. I saved up all year so I could come to Mexico for 2 months, otherwise I wouldnt be able to withstand the temptation. Is there anywher you can go to get away from you connections? You said your jobless so mabey move to find work. There is know way I could stay clean this lomg (2weeks) without leaving Seattle. My problem is I think im going to score when I get back in Feb. But mabey in the next 6 weeks ill change my outlook. Good luck man, being jobless can be a blessing sometimes, your free to go, by the way dont count on someone giving you steady work in this economy, post some adds on craigslist whatever your skillset is even if its just yard work or splitting firewood, I havnt had a real job in 5 years and I dont want one, you can make way more hustling jobs on craigslist and store bulliten boards. I hope everything works out for you. Bye.

 

[Black Rabbit of Inle]

Hi blueaddict, welcome to BL. We don't allow the use of SWIM or any other term to avoid self incrimination here, so I've edited it out of your post.

You're definitely not alone, there are many here (myself included) going through opiate withdrawal, so you will be able to find lost of different possible recovery paths to take.

Personally I'm only using Loperamide, but that's due to being out of state for work with no time to organize anything else atm. It does wonders for relieving the WD symptoms for me and many other swear by it too.

Are you seeing anyone about your depression issues? I read your post in the Vent/Rant thread and it seems you have a lot of things you need to work through regarding your ex, and depression only makes the cycle worse/easier to justify. Good luck with getting clean again