RandyWatson
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 22, 2015
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I'm Chris, I'm 38 years old and still a junkie. I was so desperate for some cocaine tonight I tried chat rooms. As I get older my liasons to the druggy underworld have shrunk down to just 1. She was too busy to help me out tonight.......but how quickly she forgets when she was last dopesick and I showed up like some opiate wielding knight on a white steed throwing Percocet 10's down her throat like they were fuckin ninja throwing stars. But I digress....She will continue to let me down and i'll continue to help. She is my Lester Diamond.
Maybe better I didn't get the cocaine. I only like it for sex and masturbating to internet porn. Once the last line is snorted and my last orgasm is spent I fall quite hard and fast into a deep pit of regret and self loathing....the inevitable comedown when all that was wrong with the universe is still wrong but now its louder and flashier. You try to climb under the blankets to quite its deafening roar
and blind yourself to the brightness, and rationalize how you just spent 80 bucks on shit that probably wouldn't pass for cocaine in a city like L.A......but enough anecdote and more me.
I work in software. My 2 main addictions are suboxone and ambien. If I could find some sweet sweet heroin I would be all over that as well. But lucky for me (well unlucky really) heroin is so hard to come by and if you do get it, its been stepped on more times..........well I couldn't come up with something clever but I was close; something to do with Sammy Davis JR...oh well point is the shit has been crazy stepped on.
The suboxone is really more of a placebo, so the only real happiness I get a day is when I get to snort my ambien and read until I awake from a deep comfortable sleep.
Welcome to the wonderfull world of Chris!! Leave expectations at the door as well as any political correctness and moral sensitivity.
Maybe better I didn't get the cocaine. I only like it for sex and masturbating to internet porn. Once the last line is snorted and my last orgasm is spent I fall quite hard and fast into a deep pit of regret and self loathing....the inevitable comedown when all that was wrong with the universe is still wrong but now its louder and flashier. You try to climb under the blankets to quite its deafening roar
and blind yourself to the brightness, and rationalize how you just spent 80 bucks on shit that probably wouldn't pass for cocaine in a city like L.A......but enough anecdote and more me.
I work in software. My 2 main addictions are suboxone and ambien. If I could find some sweet sweet heroin I would be all over that as well. But lucky for me (well unlucky really) heroin is so hard to come by and if you do get it, its been stepped on more times..........well I couldn't come up with something clever but I was close; something to do with Sammy Davis JR...oh well point is the shit has been crazy stepped on.
The suboxone is really more of a placebo, so the only real happiness I get a day is when I get to snort my ambien and read until I awake from a deep comfortable sleep.
Welcome to the wonderfull world of Chris!! Leave expectations at the door as well as any political correctness and moral sensitivity.
Nice to meet you Chris 
