TheProfessor2112
Greenlighter
Hello Bluelight! It?s nice to finally become a member after reading/researching these forums since late 2009. Also a quick thank you to the admins for helping me finalise my registration.
A little about myself.
In July of 2009 I got mixed up with the wrong crowd and to make a long story short, that summer I went from occasionally smoking herb to a full blown I/V opiate habit. Mostly H. I was 20 years old, now 29. In those years I?ve come to learn A LOT about addiction, and how it affects and changes the brain and body, mostly thanks to these forums. So first and foremost I?d like to say thank you BL for the massive wealth of info I?ve come across over the years. It most certainly has made my life and many others lives much better knowing we?re not alone.
So here?s where I?m at now.
Being addicted to opiates(mainly H) for the past 9 years has been a huge struggle obviously. I?ve been able to string several months together being clean from everything, almost a year at a couple instances, but for some reason I can never make it to that year mark and beyond. About 3 years ago I decided to go on suboxone maintenance with the idea that I could avoid cravings and get past the year mark and make the lifestyle changes necessary for long term sobriety, then when I was ready, taper off and become opiate free for good! Those plans we make always seem so flawless at the time don?t they? Well, even with being on suboxone maintenance, I cannot seem to get past that year mark. I figured out that being on a low dose(4mg/day is the highest I?ve been on) I could take ?vacations? from suboxone and party for a while before going right back on my meds. Well that worked great the first few times, but as I?ve read here and seen happen all too often with that way of life, the switch back onto suboxone becomes harder and harder, almost as bad as cold turkey W/D as I?d make the switch back. I?m glad it wasn?t just me having this problem.
So at of today, I?m 10 days off the H after a 3 week relapse and stable on my meds again. I?ve managed to stabilise at 2.5mgs/day. I figured since I?ve gone over 3 weeks without my meds, this would be a good time to taper off completely. So I joined this forum in hopes to create a thread and get support through the process, get support, advice, any help you bluelighters are willing to give to make this as easy as possible. I?ve run out of time to post as I must attend dinner with my wife and kids, but I?ll be back ASAP and keep this going. Hope you all have an amazing day!
-TheProfessor-
A little about myself.
In July of 2009 I got mixed up with the wrong crowd and to make a long story short, that summer I went from occasionally smoking herb to a full blown I/V opiate habit. Mostly H. I was 20 years old, now 29. In those years I?ve come to learn A LOT about addiction, and how it affects and changes the brain and body, mostly thanks to these forums. So first and foremost I?d like to say thank you BL for the massive wealth of info I?ve come across over the years. It most certainly has made my life and many others lives much better knowing we?re not alone.
So here?s where I?m at now.
Being addicted to opiates(mainly H) for the past 9 years has been a huge struggle obviously. I?ve been able to string several months together being clean from everything, almost a year at a couple instances, but for some reason I can never make it to that year mark and beyond. About 3 years ago I decided to go on suboxone maintenance with the idea that I could avoid cravings and get past the year mark and make the lifestyle changes necessary for long term sobriety, then when I was ready, taper off and become opiate free for good! Those plans we make always seem so flawless at the time don?t they? Well, even with being on suboxone maintenance, I cannot seem to get past that year mark. I figured out that being on a low dose(4mg/day is the highest I?ve been on) I could take ?vacations? from suboxone and party for a while before going right back on my meds. Well that worked great the first few times, but as I?ve read here and seen happen all too often with that way of life, the switch back onto suboxone becomes harder and harder, almost as bad as cold turkey W/D as I?d make the switch back. I?m glad it wasn?t just me having this problem.
So at of today, I?m 10 days off the H after a 3 week relapse and stable on my meds again. I?ve managed to stabilise at 2.5mgs/day. I figured since I?ve gone over 3 weeks without my meds, this would be a good time to taper off completely. So I joined this forum in hopes to create a thread and get support through the process, get support, advice, any help you bluelighters are willing to give to make this as easy as possible. I?ve run out of time to post as I must attend dinner with my wife and kids, but I?ll be back ASAP and keep this going. Hope you all have an amazing day!
-TheProfessor-
