Jmths
Bluelighter
Hi there,
I've been lurking BlueLight since 8 years or so and consider BlueLight the hot soup for all kinds of new substances and often the place where considerable insight meets delerium. In the past I've had, perhaps like many others around here, a broad fascination with most things psychoactive and perhaps with the human being itself. As a hobby I wrote about more then 50 different substances in a set format to make interessting information accessible in an enjoyable manner and also because of the shameless diary guilty pleasure. Gardening I also enjoy doing in spare time. I've been active on other related forums in the past years.
A week ago I finaly managed to get myself into the hospital wich was a mix of bad luck and bound to happen, ironicly after I'd been going trough life sober for a respectable few months. I've been trough some rough things in life psychoactives related but the occurence last week (Baclofen related) was a new kind of eye opener. This might sound a bit cocky but I'm fairly confident I won't be feeling much thrist towards any (new) substance for a while other then perhaps a sporadic planned occasion in the future when I feel fully vitalized. I felt some need to distantiate myself from prior life yet at the same time I don't feel like tossing it to the side all together in wich BlueLight feels somewhat like a fresh midway, altough it might be a bit early to plan commitment, we'll see.
For now I simply plan on tanking things easy, orientate outside a bit, get used to a new interface, eat some apples and write down some random things.
Doing good here, have a nice day all.
I've been lurking BlueLight since 8 years or so and consider BlueLight the hot soup for all kinds of new substances and often the place where considerable insight meets delerium. In the past I've had, perhaps like many others around here, a broad fascination with most things psychoactive and perhaps with the human being itself. As a hobby I wrote about more then 50 different substances in a set format to make interessting information accessible in an enjoyable manner and also because of the shameless diary guilty pleasure. Gardening I also enjoy doing in spare time. I've been active on other related forums in the past years.
A week ago I finaly managed to get myself into the hospital wich was a mix of bad luck and bound to happen, ironicly after I'd been going trough life sober for a respectable few months. I've been trough some rough things in life psychoactives related but the occurence last week (Baclofen related) was a new kind of eye opener. This might sound a bit cocky but I'm fairly confident I won't be feeling much thrist towards any (new) substance for a while other then perhaps a sporadic planned occasion in the future when I feel fully vitalized. I felt some need to distantiate myself from prior life yet at the same time I don't feel like tossing it to the side all together in wich BlueLight feels somewhat like a fresh midway, altough it might be a bit early to plan commitment, we'll see.
For now I simply plan on tanking things easy, orientate outside a bit, get used to a new interface, eat some apples and write down some random things.
Doing good here, have a nice day all.
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