New member however long time lurker

[mostunlikely]

Hi. I have been reading things here and there on this forum for several months now. I decided to join because I felt like I needed somewhere to talk about my "use" with others who have either been through or are going through something similar. I'm a female in my late twenties who has a great job and am progressing nicely in my career. I am educated with a masters degree, yet somehow I have found myself in this situation, not really knowing how I got here. Things started about 4 months ago, slowly increasing in frequency.. and now, it's become almost habitual to a point where I don't even want to but find myself doing it anyway. I don't want to go into too much detail as this is just a quick introduction, and I'm not too familiar with all of the rules just yet. So hello. I'm looking forward to some interesting discussions on here.

 

[Smoky]

Hi,
Welcome to Bluelight !! I found myself a few times in life continuing to take the very thing I didn't want …. over and over and over, hence the progression of my addiction. Although, it's definitely possible to be free of the cycle and break the habit.

It takes time to learn all the rules. Please let me know if you have any questions.

 

[GersPunk]

Welcome from another new member.

 

[mostunlikely]

Thank you! I know that all too well, doing the very thing I don't want to do, and only getting worse. Starting from every so often to every weekend and now just to get through my day so I don't fall asleep at work. What a pickle I'm in! So paranoid people are starting to notice.