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GodFatherPoppy

GodFatherPoppy

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Figured i join and share my experiences if it can help anyone. As my username states my DOC was opiates, mainly heroin and amph/benzos for a close 2nd.

I'm 27 years old and fell in love with opiates at 17 and by the time I was 19 i was a full blown addict shooting dope (ECP I live in the southern tier of NY) got on subs at 20 years old. The next 5 years was on and off using. That's the short of it really. The last 2 years I've been pretty much sober (once every month or so I'll pick up a half G and have fun for a day or 2 but that's the extent of that).

I help my father run a small family owned business that pretty soon I'll be taking over.

That's pretty much it for now. Just looking to help out and give advice to some folks that might be in a situation i was once in
 
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Are you too?

Hey man that's exiting that you'll be taking over soon. And being able to use hard drugs so sparingly sounds almost too good to be true, so good for you on that.

How did you fall in love was your love prescribed by a doctor or you find it yourself?

I find that when i let others prescribe me the love.. it doesn't grow into what I'd hoped. Whereas, when i take things at my pace, i find the need to go out of my way to make something out of whatever i love. Because.. I found it. It's mine.

For example.

When i was taught guitar, it wasn't my original idea. It was an idea of an idea. When i started drumming it felt so much better because i knew i wanted to bang some fuckin' drums.

Welcome to Bluelight 🤪
 
Welcome GodFatherPoppy. I also lurked for a long time on this site. And I also use opioids moderately now. Congrats on taking over the family business, I've been a businessman for 40 years (and a secret addict). I recently retired so I joined this forum. Best to you!
 
TheInvisibleStoner said:
Yeah, once you have something to be clean for. (Your business and taking care of your pops), its kinda easy to keep it under control I think. Too much on the line to fuck up like when we were kids.
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So true. I think I wasted about 300k on my habit. I'd like it back for retirement. But it's great to be sober (in moderation).
 
Welcome. Good job keeping the use to a minimum, it’s not a bad way to be at all. As they say, moderation is key. Takes a sober mind to moderate like so.
 
It's taken me 10 years to get to this point. IDK how much I've blown but it's easily over 100g in 10 years. Y'all know how how it goes. :cool: giving me something to work towards business wise has deff helped more than you can imagine.

How did i fall in love? Simple, got my heart broken by a girl my Sr year of high school and turned to opiates. Even before the breakup i knew if I had a steady supply that it would be written in stone Lol. I actually wasn't dependent until i started banging it. Pretty much within 2 months of discovering dope I was banging it and the rest is history.

I manage to stay clean (well mostly clean) by distancing myself from the whole scene. Got rid of any and all contacts besides the dude I get my subs from. A friend I met in the game and we became pretty good buds. all I gotta do is place an order and he has it for me when I show up. He's pretty much on the same page as me, only uses once a month or so. Just by pure luck we met and ended up being at the same point in addiction 6 years ago when I randomly got his #

That's the shortest long version really haha.

Even tho opiates are my DOC, meth is way way more compulsive for me so I stay away from that altogether nowadays. Most of the fucked up shit I've done has been spun the fuck out, never drew attention to myself on opiates like I have speed.

And benzos just because I've had anxiety all my life but never used those more than a week or 2 at a time. The WD's from those truly scare the fuck outta me
 
Thanks for letting us take a look at your life. We may be strangers, but I can't help but be proud of you. Keep it up!
 
Im introverted by nature so that's really a big thing in helping me stay away from the scene. And the scene here is crap anyways. Mostly bs fucking fent dope. Me and my home boy hate the fent.....with a passion. Luckily even here in bumfuck nowhere i can still get the real deal chunky beige/tan rocks....most of the time.
 
I must be too old, cause I can't help but say "be careful". Fentanyl has certainly destroyed many drugs out there. I only use my prescriptions nowadays. Be well and stay safe.
 
Hip Pickle Rick said:
I must be too old, cause I can't help but say "be careful". Fentanyl has certainly destroyed many drugs out there. I only use my prescriptions nowadays. Be well and stay safe.
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Same view as me. Whenever i grab something I have the fent test strips with me. In all the years I've been fucking around I've had to be narcan'd 2x and i suspect it was fent related. I might be in the minority but after the "honeymoon" phase i used opiates to get shit done, was never really a fan of the nod.

6-8 mg of sub daily here, some days more some less, usually 2-3mg subL 2x a day
 
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