New member and day 1 on methadone

[My3sons]

Anyone have any positive mmt stories? Started H about 4 yrs ago. Had a 6 month clean w/ subs stint until i lost my health insurance and relapsed 2 yrs ago. Today is my first day on methadone. I want this to work. I need it to work bc saying goodbye to my children is not an option. I was sick as hell going in there this am, even had to bring a bucket in my car! It was an ugly site! I feel much better now and was warned it wouldn't last 24 hrs bc the dose is too low but has to start at 30mgs. How long did it take to stabalize? What did you do to quench the needle part of the addiction? Im just so antsy right now.@

 

[tjpsaint]

just joined the group and saw this methadone saved my life mate been on the gear fro about a decade, 3 days of 60mg and i wasn't waking up in withdrawals after a couple of weeks i could almost miss a day, the needle was easy i ran out of veins and my femorals are in the wrong place cos of an operation i had as a child. I have been as high as 135mg a day but now am as low as 15mg been heroin free for 2 years

 

[elviswearsnikes]

Thank you for sharing your story.

I've been on methadone for about 4 months now and stabilised at 60mg a day now. I struggled with insomnia and withdrawals, especially during mornings... I was gradually increased (in 10mg every few days) and was noticeably feeling better at 50mg and 'comfortable' with manageable cravings at 60mg. I was using about 1.5g of brown UK heroin and snowballing with varying amounts of crack.

Everyone is different when it comes to dosage and I didn't want to keep pushing up my dose when I wasn't having withdrawals and when my dose would last me for the whole 24 hours.

My life has definitely changed for the better now as I have some degree of stability and don't have to resort to crime or spend most of my time thinking about, finding and using drugs.

It's not a miracle cure, however, and you do need some will-power and to still need to make conscious positive changes and decisions daily if you really want to recover.

I'm not saying that to try and put you down but just preparing you to see that methadone will certainly help but you also need to make the right decisions too if you truly want to stop. It will help with your cravings and takes care of your withdrawal, but it does takes a bit of time to change your thinking.

This is coming from a struggling addict who still uses on top of their methadone. Don't get me wrong my life is so a lot better right now, and I might only use just once a week, but my personal reality is... I still use.

The reasons I do this is primarily because of my own choice but also because I can't get out of this rut of self-pity, and because I don't have a good enough reason right now to give it up completely.

I hit rock bottom before I started methadone... Jail, probation, I lost my job, was homeless and had nothing. Methadone has helped me to wake up everyday and not feel ill or have that anxiety that is pending over you that you need to score soon because you're rattling.

But I am still making the wrong choices... You have your children and, with a strong goal like that, plus the methadone you've got every reason to stay clean if that is what you really want.

Just a friendly word of advice from an understanding addict.

I wish you all the best.

Stay bless.