id like to try and describe my experiences of the past 4 weeks
i cant really do it justice because by nature i am a minimalist and find it extremely difficult to elaborate without being asked to
what has basically happened is that i had to lose my mind to find my self
it all happened with a manic episode (first of my life at the age of 20), where i was being super productive, super nice to everyone, super energetic and my thought processes were moving like a racing car
things that led to this manic episode were
juice fast - i had been living on low ish quality pure pressed fruit and veg juice (mostly fruit unfortunately which i suppose added to me excess energy), i reached 5 days i think before i reintegrated fibre into my diet, and that was the point i felt i had learnt enough to be able to stop fasting
acid + dmt - i tripped on some good clean tabs (around 180mcg) whilst on day 4 or so of the fast, it was pure bliss, i didnt really get the (true art) element i usually get on acid at night, but the revelations were very, very close to home and useful to me in life. it should be noted that i had been doing reading on proper reintegration of psychedelic experience so i better understood how to apply these 'smelling the floweres' concepts back into daily life.
nofap - theres a sub-reddit called nofap, its a community of people (most seem to have erectile dysfunction [i dont thank god], due to porn addiction, i wanted to try it out for myself so i did 55 days or so of not releasing any seminal fluid even in wet dream form, it did crazy thing to my body, kind of like letting a stew boil past when its cooked because i feel that it helped to tip my psychosis past the breaking point.
new environment - there was a small controversy about the thread i created about the aunt + dmt thing, i havent pursued it any further, but being at her house brought me back to my zen so to speak. her garden is spiritual bordering on extremely spiritual and perfectly created. i hosted a party there and it was one of the greatest gatherings of my life (although i dont know if my manic perspective skewed that vision because i was already starting to 'lose it' per-se.)
also i should add i had been doing some reading on taoist sexual kung fu and practicing some meditation
anyway there was one night i was at the house sitting place, i had just coked a very delicious dinner of bacon and eggs for my sisters friends and i could tell they were going to lez out with my presence there, so i walked home, it was super peaceful, on the way i think i visited the royal botanic gardens or was on bluelight destroying ppl in the lounge for kicks (as people do i guess), either way there was one point where i could smell the dmt molecule in a plant that grows over a fence to a junior primary school, i chewed the leaves and spat out most of the fibre, swallowed the bitter juice and then back on to bluelight, but having god like thought processes
i feel like the drug i was on was a cross between stimulant/amphetamine and psychedelic/deliriant
its very hard to tell and i am very curious what it was because it spirit guided me to the ER ward at hospital where i was psychotic for 2 days and thats probably another blog post once i can write it all out because so much crazy shit has happened in the past 3-4 weeks its difficult to type it all
peace and love
Mr.E
%)%)
i cant really do it justice because by nature i am a minimalist and find it extremely difficult to elaborate without being asked to
what has basically happened is that i had to lose my mind to find my self
it all happened with a manic episode (first of my life at the age of 20), where i was being super productive, super nice to everyone, super energetic and my thought processes were moving like a racing car
things that led to this manic episode were
juice fast - i had been living on low ish quality pure pressed fruit and veg juice (mostly fruit unfortunately which i suppose added to me excess energy), i reached 5 days i think before i reintegrated fibre into my diet, and that was the point i felt i had learnt enough to be able to stop fasting
acid + dmt - i tripped on some good clean tabs (around 180mcg) whilst on day 4 or so of the fast, it was pure bliss, i didnt really get the (true art) element i usually get on acid at night, but the revelations were very, very close to home and useful to me in life. it should be noted that i had been doing reading on proper reintegration of psychedelic experience so i better understood how to apply these 'smelling the floweres' concepts back into daily life.
nofap - theres a sub-reddit called nofap, its a community of people (most seem to have erectile dysfunction [i dont thank god], due to porn addiction, i wanted to try it out for myself so i did 55 days or so of not releasing any seminal fluid even in wet dream form, it did crazy thing to my body, kind of like letting a stew boil past when its cooked because i feel that it helped to tip my psychosis past the breaking point.
new environment - there was a small controversy about the thread i created about the aunt + dmt thing, i havent pursued it any further, but being at her house brought me back to my zen so to speak. her garden is spiritual bordering on extremely spiritual and perfectly created. i hosted a party there and it was one of the greatest gatherings of my life (although i dont know if my manic perspective skewed that vision because i was already starting to 'lose it' per-se.)
also i should add i had been doing some reading on taoist sexual kung fu and practicing some meditation
anyway there was one night i was at the house sitting place, i had just coked a very delicious dinner of bacon and eggs for my sisters friends and i could tell they were going to lez out with my presence there, so i walked home, it was super peaceful, on the way i think i visited the royal botanic gardens or was on bluelight destroying ppl in the lounge for kicks (as people do i guess), either way there was one point where i could smell the dmt molecule in a plant that grows over a fence to a junior primary school, i chewed the leaves and spat out most of the fibre, swallowed the bitter juice and then back on to bluelight, but having god like thought processes
i feel like the drug i was on was a cross between stimulant/amphetamine and psychedelic/deliriant
its very hard to tell and i am very curious what it was because it spirit guided me to the ER ward at hospital where i was psychotic for 2 days and thats probably another blog post once i can write it all out because so much crazy shit has happened in the past 3-4 weeks its difficult to type it all
peace and love
Mr.E
%)%)