Anxiety New Job Starts Today

[I'm-Still-Alive]

So… I start my new job today. Official job title is Service Coordinator. But… I’m not excited per se. I’m excited to get out of my apartment and out of my head. But it’s not going to be anything like my last two jobs. My last two jobs were SO fulfilling. I helped people. This one is a completely different population, completely different beast. I don’t know what to expect. I’m so scared. I want to HELP people. But I don’t know if that’s what I’m going to be doing. I don’t know. My boyfriend sees jobs as just something to bring money in. I don’t care as much about the money. If I did, I would’ve gone into a different field. I don’t know.

 

[Jabberwocky]

That's a very vague description did you get an idea as to what services are being provided or the companies overall mission?

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

That's a very vague description did you get an idea as to what services are being provided or the companies overall mission?

So, I’m providing housing services to senior citizens. I’m used to providing crisis services to substance users and individuals with mental illness. Completely different.

 

[Jabberwocky]

So, I’m providing housing services to senior citizens. I’m used to providing crisis services to substance users and individuals with mental illness. Completely different.

That's fucking dope

I mean right off the bat it sounds important. And probably very much appreciated.by those you serve

I hope your team / organization is good to you

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

Thank you. Today was... Different than expected. I am still so nervous that I’m gonna mess up with this population. Plus, I’m worrying about getting to and from the job on time with the bus. I’m just nervous about everything, and my anxiety meds aren’t doing much of anything. I can’t afford life. My depression is kicking my ass. So I go in for my second day. Hoping that I can get my feet under me and just do everything right and help people and make everybody proud.

 

[Jabberwocky]

It will take time don't pressure yourself too much!

 

[Mr. Krinkle]

So, I’m providing housing services to senior citizens. I’m used to providing crisis services to substance users and individuals with mental illness. Completely different.

that sounds like you're helping people to me

senior citizens are ppl too ya know

 

[Mr. Krinkle]

a job's a job

just go - make it look like you're doing something

that's the name of the game

look busy


i walk fast so everybody thinks im busy


imp:

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

that sounds like you're helping people to me

senior citizens are ppl too ya know

Well, that’s not how I intended it… I know they are. It’s just not the population that I have specialized in. I’ve never taken a gerontology course in my entire educational career. It’s always been abnormal psych, substance use, young adults, adolescence, etc. it’s a much different population and I’m scared that I’m going to not have the right resources and education. I feel that’s a very valid and understandable fear.

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

a job's a job

just go - make it look like you're doing something

that's the name of the game

look busy


i walk fast so everybody thinks im busy


imp:

I’m here, I’m doing as I’m asked. Staying busy.

 

[Mr. Krinkle]

Well, that’s not how I intended it… I know they are. It’s just not the population that I have specialized in. I’ve never taken a gerontology course in my entire educational career. It’s always been abnormal psych, substance use, young adults, adolescence, etc. it’s a much different population and I’m scared that I’m going to not have the right resources and education. I feel that’s a very valid and understandable fear.

People are people... Ya got grandparents? Old neighbors? That's who you're dealing with....

Don't let the old people scare ya

 

[PtahTek]

I’m scared that I’m going to not have the right resources and education. I feel that’s a very valid and understandable fear.

A suggestion:
Leave the past behind (depression) and the future (anxiety) will take care of itself we do not know what cometh so how to prepare for it?
I'm sure you have all the tools and skills needed to provide a very noble (imo) service.
Work on task at hand and stay on point maybe you can feel fulfilled in this understanding.
Seriously; you got this. Just be you.

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

A suggestion:
Leave the past behind (depression) and the future (anxiety) will take care of itself we do not know what cometh so how to prepare for it?
I'm sure you have all the tools and skills needed to provide a very noble (imo) service.
Work on task at hand and stay on point maybe you can feel fulfilled in this understanding.
Seriously; you got this. Just be you.

Thank you so much. I guess it’s just so nerve wracking. I’ve been out of work since mid-April. I’m wracked with anxiety about everything. My depression has been at an all time high. I’ve been rather suicidal since things have happened and my PTSD has been awful too. Still waiting for mental health. Can’t get a damn call back. I keep calling and they just take my info.

 

[PtahTek]

Can’t get a damn call back. I keep calling and they just take my info

The mental and physical sides of healthcare are under great strain and it's no wonder. Drs are aging out and all we left with is what I like to call YouTube doctors. Jokingly. But....

I am dealing with a lot myself and it is very similar in nature as your struggle. It's freakin tough imo/e. Nothing has ever come easy to me. I am on my knees every morning trying to ground myself. Panic hits as soon as I awake. Been so for more than 30 years.
I really feel that you will find something unexpected (for the good) from your next phase of life. Grow with it as I also feel that this is the end all anyway....
Always my best,
J

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

If you’re still feeling like this isn’t the right fit and you want to explore other ways to help people, there are a lot of different paths out there in healthcare and social services.

I did switch, and yet again, it’s still not what I want to do. It’s just so I could get my foot in the door at a leading healthcare provider in my area but I’m stuck in this awful position for the next 11 months. I just want to go back to helping people. Now all I do is take calls and get treated like shit by patients and staff.